durpa

met with my ex girlfriend, we both cried over spilled milk, i felt like killing myslef and the biggest piece of shit, started to snow and it's already 20 fucking degrees here. i'm not used to this weather and thoughts of cali poison my head and i dont even feel like finishing my application to BYU and i just want to get the fuck out of here. i'm a mormon and i just don't connect and understand with the people here. they would have a heart attack if they ever masturbated, and little do they know is what they really need is a ice cold glass of beer. i'm sad between she and me, but I don't know how we would work. she saw my pierced nipples and she took it better than i thought. and tomorrow is just one more day of it. i will finish some serious business this week and i feel somewhat confident i'll have a better job. like my friend brian said, I'll just put it into god's hands. i lost my perspective a bit, and I'm just pondering and thinking about my next move. made my first friend with and SG model, it feels very very special to be one of 700. but i like her sets and how she looks and the secret to a healthy relationship is compromise and sacrifice.