dumpling

The pillow felt like it was stuffed with straw and it made a crinkling noise when I put my head against it. I couldn't rest my head on it when I was sleeping because it was just too high. So, I just pushed it out of the way and I slept fine anyway. And everyone did everything right and made nice noises and smiled big and genuine. I don't hate myself, but at those times I wish I was anyone else. Just the crinkling noise and I'm gone like I wasn't ever there at all.

sorry for being so quiet lately,