CHANGE
Current mood: accomplished
ok right now im just trying to focus on the fact that change can be good. its scary as hell but i think it could be really good for brandon and i. all i ever wanted was for him to be happy. and now he is getting there. so im trying not to focus on what hes doing right now with other people and focus on me. go out and do what i want and find out what makes me happy. ill admit it is hard. especially nights like tonight when im here alone and i know hes with her. but i am strong enough to move on. and it will get better with time.
im not afraid of being alone. im sure ill meet a nice guy, its just that ive been living the same life for so long and having it all change is hard. but theres a part of me that is excited to start out a whole new year and a whole new life. wish me luck. its gonna be hard. but im gonna do it. i have to.
Current mood: accomplished
ok right now im just trying to focus on the fact that change can be good. its scary as hell but i think it could be really good for brandon and i. all i ever wanted was for him to be happy. and now he is getting there. so im trying not to focus on what hes doing right now with other people and focus on me. go out and do what i want and find out what makes me happy. ill admit it is hard. especially nights like tonight when im here alone and i know hes with her. but i am strong enough to move on. and it will get better with time.
im not afraid of being alone. im sure ill meet a nice guy, its just that ive been living the same life for so long and having it all change is hard. but theres a part of me that is excited to start out a whole new year and a whole new life. wish me luck. its gonna be hard. but im gonna do it. i have to.
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
Seriously, sweetie, you'e going to be fine. You're a totally beautiful and hot young woman. You'll find a guy there to worship you like a goddess.
*pssssttttt* Can I build a temple to you?
...anyway, as for change, its great, just apprach it with optimism and a sense of the endless possbilities evident in this crazy carousel they liken to life....
...plus with music and art one is never alone
have a cool day