dulcemara

I'm trying really hard to be strong. And supportive of what Brandon feels he needs to do. But the idea of him being with other people just makes my stomache turn. I really hope that this turns out to be for the better and doesn't end up destroying what we had/could have had. I just hope he finds what hes looking for and becomes happy with himself for once. It's been so long since I've seen him happy.

Oh and I hope I find myself too blah blah blah

I think I'm gonna go to the doctor and see if I can't get on some sort of happy pills....

You know that something is seriously wrong when you find yourself always rocking when you are in one spot.....

Even scarier when you don't even realize you're doing it......