drummercedes

damnit i can't fill out my dating profile because my computer is all weird and slow and fucked up now. well, i guess i can tell everyone what happened now. i've been avoiding this because i dont' like thinking about it but it's ok now .. i'm ok.

Anyways, he asked me to leave the house for one week so we could go on a "break" ... but then he wasn't letting me know what was going on. I was staying at my moms house and I was so miserable. I can't be left hanging like that, I need to talk things over ... it's just how I am.

I can't remember a lot of it .. it's a big depressing blur ... I'm just glad that part is over with ...

So he broke up with me and I moved all my shit out of the house (we were engaged and i was going to move to california with him next year) I live with my mom now .. and it's good here. My mom is one of my best friends so i like living here (my sister is here too so it's all good and fun) not really but i've been working.

I"m glad i found a job at least tho I just need people to hang out with and forget about my troubles so IF THERE'S ANYONE WHO WANTS TO HANG OUT WITH ME ... and you're in colorado, please let me know .. i am dieing for some friends. when he broke up with me i realized he was my only friend and now i have no one!! so yeah if anyone wants to chill let me know!!

SO yes my heart was severely broken in to MILLIONS upon MILLIONS of pieces ...
I never thought that day would ever come. he was my first true love and i thought we would forever and always be together. but enough of that sappy shit! i will stop boring everyone. thankyou so much for being supportive. i wont be online so much anymore because now i have dial up (before we had high speed internet) but i will get back to everyone who left me comments because you all made me feel good! thankyou! i love you all!!