I think I have what I need to make the first step to move on...
The girl I mentioned a few blogs ago, the one I got paranoid over with my ex. I went to her myspace and like a moron I decided to read her comments to see if there were any from my ex. I found some from about a month ago and there were two that bugged me. He told her "I'll go to the JC for you =]" and "Why don't you live closer? Like down the street from me?" and I got upset. I called up my friend David and told him I think there is something going on between her and my ex. He told me that they have been chillin together but it's nothing and even if it was something I couldn't say anything because I'm not dating him. I know this, but I feel like I still have a right to now if he plans on not getting back together with me.
I confronted my ex about it though. I asked him flat out "Is there something going on between you and Victoria." He told me "Not really were just kickin it I guess. Why?" The way he said "Not really" and "I guess" makes me believe that there is a little something there and that he just doesn't want to tell me. Like an idiot though I reply and spill my heart a bit. I say Because a few days ago you were both changing your statuses to the same things and I didn't think anything of that much but I went to her comments last night and you were just like "Ill go tot he JC for you =]" and "why don't you you live like down the street from me?" and just kinda being sweet on her and I got upset and called David and he said you two have been hanging out aaaand it just really hurt I guess. I mean I know I can't say shit because we aren't together but I would want to know because if you're over me and trying to pursue other people then I want to know so I can stop holding on I guess and try and move on too because I still reallyreally love you.... =/ He doesn't reply for almost an hour so I text "So... Is that the case?" and he replies with "I got called into work. Calm fuckin' down." ... Like seriously? It's your day off, how was I supposed to know you got called into work? I tell him I didn't know and sorry, but I wait for hours for him to get back to me.
It was about ten and I sent him a text saying "Hey, I'm sorry about earlier. =/ I didn't know you were at work. I didn't mean to seem pushy either. I hope you had a decent day at work though." He replied and says thanks and that he heard I ran into our friend today at the mall. I just tell him I did and he says "That's real. How are you?" I didn't want to seem week and pathetic and feed his ego telling him that I have been upset and crying all day over his ass so I say "Meh, I'm okay I guess. How are you?" he replies with "I'm alright. I'm doing a canvas." and I say "Nice. I'm watching South Park."
The end.
I never got an answer to my question and i haven't talk to him once today.
I'm crushed, but maybe it's for the best if I don't make an attempt to talk to him.
The girl I mentioned a few blogs ago, the one I got paranoid over with my ex. I went to her myspace and like a moron I decided to read her comments to see if there were any from my ex. I found some from about a month ago and there were two that bugged me. He told her "I'll go to the JC for you =]" and "Why don't you live closer? Like down the street from me?" and I got upset. I called up my friend David and told him I think there is something going on between her and my ex. He told me that they have been chillin together but it's nothing and even if it was something I couldn't say anything because I'm not dating him. I know this, but I feel like I still have a right to now if he plans on not getting back together with me.
I confronted my ex about it though. I asked him flat out "Is there something going on between you and Victoria." He told me "Not really were just kickin it I guess. Why?" The way he said "Not really" and "I guess" makes me believe that there is a little something there and that he just doesn't want to tell me. Like an idiot though I reply and spill my heart a bit. I say Because a few days ago you were both changing your statuses to the same things and I didn't think anything of that much but I went to her comments last night and you were just like "Ill go tot he JC for you =]" and "why don't you you live like down the street from me?" and just kinda being sweet on her and I got upset and called David and he said you two have been hanging out aaaand it just really hurt I guess. I mean I know I can't say shit because we aren't together but I would want to know because if you're over me and trying to pursue other people then I want to know so I can stop holding on I guess and try and move on too because I still reallyreally love you.... =/ He doesn't reply for almost an hour so I text "So... Is that the case?" and he replies with "I got called into work. Calm fuckin' down." ... Like seriously? It's your day off, how was I supposed to know you got called into work? I tell him I didn't know and sorry, but I wait for hours for him to get back to me.
It was about ten and I sent him a text saying "Hey, I'm sorry about earlier. =/ I didn't know you were at work. I didn't mean to seem pushy either. I hope you had a decent day at work though." He replied and says thanks and that he heard I ran into our friend today at the mall. I just tell him I did and he says "That's real. How are you?" I didn't want to seem week and pathetic and feed his ego telling him that I have been upset and crying all day over his ass so I say "Meh, I'm okay I guess. How are you?" he replies with "I'm alright. I'm doing a canvas." and I say "Nice. I'm watching South Park."
The end.
I never got an answer to my question and i haven't talk to him once today.
I'm crushed, but maybe it's for the best if I don't make an attempt to talk to him.
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My advice is don't worry about what other people do or say, it's a waste of time and energy. Just do your thing and if they fuck you over, just don't be around them. It's pointless to keep them in your life if they are not good to you.
It's not like if you watch over their every move they will be less likely to fuck you over, you'll just end up stressing yourself in the process and it's not worth it.
That's just my two cents...