I'm not much of a writer. I will do my best to put my thoughts to paper.
This last year has been hell and a blessing at the same time. I got divorced it was a 12 year relationship and a mutual agreement to split. After that things went down hill fast. I was working there jobs and never had a day off. I was literally working my self to death trying to provide the life style my kids were used to. I became spiteful and jealous. Everyone but me were enjoying the fruits of my labor. I started drinking heavy, really heavy. I was spending my nights at bars and strip clubs. Looking back now I think I was more hurt than I would let myself believe. I'd close the club/bar and go to work with an hour or two sleep and still drunk. It came to the point I was doing drugs with one of the girls I knew. The next morning I remembered the night before. It was an eye opening awakening. I hadn't done any drugs for 20 years. I took a leave from my primary job and quit my other two. I found a regular job 8-5 and focused on spending time with my kids. After some time I started seeing a great woman and became more focused on getting back to who I really am. Tonight I'm in a motel getting ready to go back to work with my old company. It has taken me a year to get refocused and centered. I did do it though. I have 50/50 custody and spend every moment I can with my kids. I have my job back. A good job. I have an awesome girl that supports me and encourages me. I'm back 100%. I truly believe in not giving up. It was the only reason I achieved all of this. If you find yourself wanting to quit or give up don't! You will Preserve. Don't ever quit! I love you all.
