Every day I wake up and wonder what my life would be like without chronic pain... I wake up wonderinging if ill be able to work without wanting to sit down and rest my back or my hip.
I wonder if i didnt have so much pain that id be able to lift my nieces and nephews longer than a couple minutes. Play with them in the back yard, go for a run, excerise. Thing i used to do. But as the years have gone by i dont them all less and less.
I cant play soccer, I couldnt continue gymnastics. Sometimes when i wake up i think im fine and then stand up only to fall back down again becuase the pain is too much.
Today was one of those days I was late to work becuase I couldn't get myself out of bed.
My friends say i have a low pain tolerance.. When in truth i just dont like extra pain on top of what im already pushing my body through. Plus nothing years of doctors visits have been able to help. But I have faith in my goddess that ill have a way to live everyday.
Its not always bad.. I have my good days; and believe me I know i am not the only person that lives with this. Today is just a bad day and I my inner thoughts needed to be put down.
I hope everyone has a wonderful day and is happy as they can be. Blessed Be.. ⛤
