dragonnpheonix

I have been working @ DreamWorks all week. It is a much better work situation then finishing retail stores. For one all the trades on the jobs are Union. And even though there is a push to get the job done I don't feel any stress.
My wife had to go up north to see her grandma who isn't well. She is flying home tonight. We sure miss her. If her grandma does pass away this will be the first real close person in her life to die.
That is so foreign to me. I lost a lot of loved ones early on in life and all through. I think a lot about death. I have since I was real young. In my mind I imagine the worst case scenario. Like when my wife left. What if she died in a plane crash? What would I do? How would I handle it? Or, what if I died in a car crash? Since I drive so much I always think about that. I hope now that I can handle such a tragedy in a manner that would not be self destructive. We are so conditioned to live that we don't learn how to die and have others die in our lives. When my dad died people would come up and say that they were sorry to hear that he had passed away. After awhile all I would say is "so am I". Offering condolences is something that I struggle with. I imagine it is because I don't know how to accept them.
I haven't really thought out anything here for a long time. Mostly just putting down idle chit chat. It feels good.Happy Holidays to you and yours.

seedy sanchez this is funny in case you missed it on my last update.