I have a hard time trying to figure out what to do, it kills me to be with her knowing that she wants nothing more than to be friends. Part of me wants to never see her again so the pain will stop. The other part of me wants to be there waiting for the day that she may see me differently, praying that day will come but knowing that it never will. So what is the right thing to do, let destiny be my guide and be there with her or run away never knowing if that was the right decision. What happens when she finds someone and you see them together is the pain that I am going to feel then as bad as the pain I will feel by not being a part of her life. There is no easy answer, I guess only time will tell.
annamei:
i'd like to say "do ____ and it will make things easier" but it would be a lie. trust me time does make it a little better but its still hard. i miss my ex and he was a total jackass. i say surround yourself with positive people and try to stay busy. hope to see you tomorrow at the xxx-mas party if we both make it 
polaris:
looks like you and i are in the same situation..