Going into it mellow...
Going into it mellow...
Today i'm in a funk. And i really just don't know why. knuckles white from wringing my hands all day long and all that. I think i might've spoken to soon the other day about all of those things up in the air crashing down. Maybe i've kept myself too busy to avoid a lot things that really need to be done, by instead doing...
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realistic67:
There's a lot here in one short entry....I'm old... and I have a bit of advice.
I've found fall to be every year, a very exciting and or anxiety time. It eases as you get older, find what your looking for, and it's only after a length of time do you find out who really is a friend or not.... ( We all want to trust people.. that's a social thing... we need others for survival. )
What's paramount is : Finding what you really want and doing it - Or doing something that's O.K. and pays well or gives you the time that makes other un-paying dreams a possiblity. Those are the only 2 solutions - outside of winning the lottery - to existing reasonably happy in the modern world. To pay bills, have security and have personal satisfaction.
When your lost for what you WANT to do as apposed to what you feel you NEED to do to make others happy. Think back the best times of your life ( Me? it was when I was 11... listening to The Beatles and KISS alone on my room and drawing stages while other guys doodles were of cars and girls - They're all probably salesmen and bartenders. Me, I work on rock shows and backstage in theatre - It's really the same thing I've been doing since I was 18 and it's what I wanted when I was 12 ) When you were there, in where you dreamed about what you wanted to be, whenever it was... you were on the right track....Go Back, and re-dream it all up.
Sadly, you'll find the list of people who fail you grows every year...But, in the middle of that all those people... if you look harder you'll see two things.
1. Those who failed you ( especially if they are the user types ) have a pattern of failing others - in the end they're the outsiders - they lost in reality, Because they're the ones without real support other than their lies, THAT'S NOT YOU. And they don't have you.
2. Inside all of those moments you'll find one or two shining stars that season. Keep those people in your heart and on your phone list. They probably really care about you because you cared about them. Or, they saw a part of themselves in you.
I've found fall to be every year, a very exciting and or anxiety time. It eases as you get older, find what your looking for, and it's only after a length of time do you find out who really is a friend or not.... ( We all want to trust people.. that's a social thing... we need others for survival. )
What's paramount is : Finding what you really want and doing it - Or doing something that's O.K. and pays well or gives you the time that makes other un-paying dreams a possiblity. Those are the only 2 solutions - outside of winning the lottery - to existing reasonably happy in the modern world. To pay bills, have security and have personal satisfaction.
When your lost for what you WANT to do as apposed to what you feel you NEED to do to make others happy. Think back the best times of your life ( Me? it was when I was 11... listening to The Beatles and KISS alone on my room and drawing stages while other guys doodles were of cars and girls - They're all probably salesmen and bartenders. Me, I work on rock shows and backstage in theatre - It's really the same thing I've been doing since I was 18 and it's what I wanted when I was 12 ) When you were there, in where you dreamed about what you wanted to be, whenever it was... you were on the right track....Go Back, and re-dream it all up.
Sadly, you'll find the list of people who fail you grows every year...But, in the middle of that all those people... if you look harder you'll see two things.
1. Those who failed you ( especially if they are the user types ) have a pattern of failing others - in the end they're the outsiders - they lost in reality, Because they're the ones without real support other than their lies, THAT'S NOT YOU. And they don't have you.
2. Inside all of those moments you'll find one or two shining stars that season. Keep those people in your heart and on your phone list. They probably really care about you because you cared about them. Or, they saw a part of themselves in you.
tadzi:
its called getting old, sweetheart 
i would choke a bitch to go back to feeling the way i did in about....1999. that was a turning point for me. i lost something that year that ive never gotten back.
i would choke a bitch to go back to feeling the way i did in about....1999. that was a turning point for me. i lost something that year that ive never gotten back.
Have you ever had a vivid dream or nightmare and then were abruptly awakened (in this case for something dumb) and then your brain felt like it got curb stomped and is reeling?
Yea, no fun. I thought trying to focus on typing a blog would help get me out of the grog but no dice. sooooo, nap time
Yea, no fun. I thought trying to focus on typing a blog would help get me out of the grog but no dice. sooooo, nap time
laceyk:
I hated when I am having a great dream and that happens. Feels like reality slaps you in the face.
sharona1881:
ugh, i hate waking up that way 
Alright, let's take a whack at this shall we?
Guess who's going to Florida this weekend? This broad. Guess when it's going to rain all weekend? This weekend. But then again, it's also Florida. Rain happens, but i doubt it will ruin any of my plans. This has been booked since January, i will defy nature god damn it.
Officially registered for classes. Still have...
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Guess who's going to Florida this weekend? This broad. Guess when it's going to rain all weekend? This weekend. But then again, it's also Florida. Rain happens, but i doubt it will ruin any of my plans. This has been booked since January, i will defy nature god damn it.
Officially registered for classes. Still have...
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drpepper23:
I'm going to Destin this weekend
Lots to update about, but lately i've just had a really hard time organizing my thoughts.
Hopefully this weekend and some time away will remedy that. Or at least some of it.
Hopefully this weekend and some time away will remedy that. Or at least some of it.
My friends are so sweet. Thanks again for all the well wishes and texts!
I hate working the late shift at work. Not because i hate the customer service aspect of it, but because when i wander around and when i close up, i fear some sort of creepy "The Shining" shit will start happening. There's way too many offices, rooms and long hallways and...
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I hate working the late shift at work. Not because i hate the customer service aspect of it, but because when i wander around and when i close up, i fear some sort of creepy "The Shining" shit will start happening. There's way too many offices, rooms and long hallways and...
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drpepper23:
maybe a trip to another hospital is in store.... LOL
tadzi:
come and play with us, amy
come and play with us, amy
hah, another one of my postsecrets went through. What are the odds?
Watchin' Rescue Me and i saw a commercial for Sons of Anarchy and i saw Mr. Hank Rollins. Who, unfortunately, i think looks like a hot mess. Made me kinda sad.
Also, i'm VERY much over Brad Pitt. Not even funny. And why did they make another Final Destination? The only thing that...
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Watchin' Rescue Me and i saw a commercial for Sons of Anarchy and i saw Mr. Hank Rollins. Who, unfortunately, i think looks like a hot mess. Made me kinda sad.
Also, i'm VERY much over Brad Pitt. Not even funny. And why did they make another Final Destination? The only thing that...
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notoriouscat:
i love hank. i would marry him. he's no spring chicken, though.
So here's the scoop:
- Yes, it's true. I'm going camping. Too early in the morning for me to comment on it, but i'm just putting it out there for the curious.
- I still have not taken my Funeral Service Psychology & Counseling final. There were some technical errors with my proctoring device and my professor who decided not to check his email until 5:00 pm...
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justblaze:
You get lasik or something?
justblaze:
I had it done too, blind as fuck in both eyes before, blind as fuck in 1 eye after lol My doctor was a dumbass. 
Mmmmmm, there's something about getting a head start on my next embalming class' reading during a thunderstorm in my boss' office while he's out to lunch. Panoramic view of awesome. It just set the mood for the rest of the day.
1 more final tomorrow. Then i'm free until September. And ooooh what a month August is going to be.
But i'm totally beat. Very...
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1 more final tomorrow. Then i'm free until September. And ooooh what a month August is going to be.
But i'm totally beat. Very...
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Rescue Me gives me a wonderful source of what i like to call "mood music". Mellow or racing, intense or passive, it always seems to just fit. I love it.
She says with a smirk.
As per usual, my mouth is getting me into trouble. But this go around, sans for an isolated incident, i feel really fucking good about it. Some people had it...
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She says with a smirk.
As per usual, my mouth is getting me into trouble. But this go around, sans for an isolated incident, i feel really fucking good about it. Some people had it...
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