dose

so after life's little explosion last night, i think its time to let a few things go.
i am real proud of myself though. yesterday the word of the night was no.
just no.

no more guy drama; i've stepped out of the dating ring. it makes me appreciate my guy friends tons more. who cares if half of them have secret crushes on me, at least i never have to worry about being put in bad position.
no more mooch friends
no more exboyfriends being sad that we met this time of year
no more mom telling me that i was beautiful the way i was before i started dying my hair and getting tattoos.
No wire hangers. EVER (sorry, had to throw that in there)

no more second guesses, labels, excuses, half assed reasons, smoke and mirrors, fake smiles, back peddling, advice on the obvious, make believe, lie and surpress games. if you wanna talk, we'll talk. if you wanna fuck me, then lets fuck. if you think i'm a bitch, sorry but you made me that way. you feel bad, then lets grab a pint. you can't handle the 2 guys you're fucking because you love them both, sorry i cant relate.

i might be young and sometimes extremely reckless. but i dont see it as me being naive. i'm just living right now while i can while everyone else is too busy trying to sort themselves out.

i am black and white and i am face value.
take me as such. because the more time you spend trying to figure me out, the more you're going to just "magically" find. and then you'll realize you've wasted too much time and i'm already gone baby.