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These days, it is very hard for me to say i'm truly content. Now that is not saying, i'm never happy, but i have not been 100 percent totally content with how a weekend, or time alone with friends has gone in a long time. Not to insult the friends i have, i swear what few i have are the best the world has ever known.

But yesterday was just an absolute pleasure. The most stressful part of my day was getting a parking spot. and that wasnt even a huge ordeal. I felt like i could take my time, i didnt have to sit and be entertained, there was no awkward weird conversations or silence, everything just meshed beautifully. i am extremely grateful that the boys look out for me and take care of me like they do.

to have fun, relax and totally be myself is just a wonderful thing.
maybe this summer will really make up for everything thats been coming my way lately.
Maybe things are going to start looking up and that good karma is going to smile upon me.
I'm very excited and slightly anxious. I feel somewhat settled now.
I know where i stand with my job and i'm damn good at it, the money i make allows me to live comfortably and SAVE, which is key, my friends are home for the summer from college, boy issues have somewhat resolved themselves with little (but recognized effort).

Dare i say, for the first time since my junior year of highschool, i am content with where i'm sitting for the most part right and for once there is no pressure to worry about the future?
at my age, i feel like this is something extraordinary.