OK its another new week, but....
Last week was getting quite good for me so im going to keep it going a bit longer (you will need to scroll down though
last week (+ this week)
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Right- NEW WEEK
i'm sure i will have NEW things to say soon too.
i have a new girlfriend called 'babel 01' she's an i pod from apple land.
prescription drug of the week:
temazepam (for sleeping)
have high hopes on this one.
seem to have bought some Lucky Strikes too, i wonder what that means!
I have started making a silly little film on tidying my room (from a bipolar point of view) got to do something when the weather is cold! and the meds have stopped downstairs from getting excited. the good thing about making a film about tidying your room is that you can do it with out leaving your room!
Thursday
had a good chat with a friend tonight, and she helped me face up to some stuff i have to do (my that sounds cryptic)
we met during the flurry of late night shopping- felt like a scene from 'fear and loathing in lost Vegas' my moving my seroxat to the morning didn't help. felt very paranoid for a while, then the calming effect of strong coffee and friendship kicked in
Plus i managed half a days work, all by myself YAY
drug of the day
Caffeine
Plus i have had a Pod cast dedicated to me, by this chap who has written a great book on Bipolar http://www.bipolaradvantage.com/
(think he's doing some maintenance on it at the moment so the link might not work)
He has just put chapter 4 up as a podcast (that's the one
)
This book/podcasts are 'must reads' or 'must listens' to anyone who suffers or is interested in bipolar, mania, mood swings and depression.
this journal entry is dedicated to Kate!
Saturday
after deciding that not much of my body is working- (because of pharmaceutical drugs), inc. head and other male equipment, i have been advised to sell off redundant parts, so far there has been little interest apart from a lapsed Jewish man who wants to by my foreskin, don't think i will manage to sell my brain, as people can tell its done too many miles and its a bit of a right off.
plus points today:
having 2 complete warm meals
waking by 1pm
attempting sleep by 2.30am
buying some new clothes / washing the dirty ones
finding some new interesting pod casts (about 40 hours)
had a hair cut and a beard trim ( i look less like a mountain goat)
apologised to my house mate who i got really angry with the other day
re jibed my laptop and planed my new sound recording rig
stopped my relapsed smoking phase (cigarets are 2 faced, they excite you & depress you, fuck them! mmmmm
not been overwhelmed by my medication
not upset anyone ( to my knowledge)
started a nice writing project with a friend
(and i thought id had a lazy day, maybe motivation is coming back???)
(gawd knows how i fitted all that in, I've been hardly making it out of bed for 2 weeks!)
drug of the day
Ginger Beer
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another Monday - wow fantastic im awake! it happened at 9.30 too!
saw 'attack of the penguins last night, and fixed a house-mate up with one of my old computers and internet, hadnt met her properly before- she seems cool.
going to start work soon- see if i can do a 'normal day' sounds boring but it would be a great acheivment!
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ok haven't achieved much work work, but been awake all day- no naps!
no anxiety attacks!
no sanity lapses (i think)!
Phoned 'MIND' found out about some BP groups + plus a Christmas party, im just trying to imagine how 20 bipolar in one restaurant party???!!!!
Last week was getting quite good for me so im going to keep it going a bit longer (you will need to scroll down though
last week (+ this week)
----------------------------------------------------------
Right- NEW WEEK
i'm sure i will have NEW things to say soon too.
i have a new girlfriend called 'babel 01' she's an i pod from apple land.
prescription drug of the week:
temazepam (for sleeping)
have high hopes on this one.
seem to have bought some Lucky Strikes too, i wonder what that means!
I have started making a silly little film on tidying my room (from a bipolar point of view) got to do something when the weather is cold! and the meds have stopped downstairs from getting excited. the good thing about making a film about tidying your room is that you can do it with out leaving your room!
Thursday
had a good chat with a friend tonight, and she helped me face up to some stuff i have to do (my that sounds cryptic)
we met during the flurry of late night shopping- felt like a scene from 'fear and loathing in lost Vegas' my moving my seroxat to the morning didn't help. felt very paranoid for a while, then the calming effect of strong coffee and friendship kicked in
Plus i managed half a days work, all by myself YAY
drug of the day
Caffeine
Plus i have had a Pod cast dedicated to me, by this chap who has written a great book on Bipolar http://www.bipolaradvantage.com/
(think he's doing some maintenance on it at the moment so the link might not work)
He has just put chapter 4 up as a podcast (that's the one
)
This book/podcasts are 'must reads' or 'must listens' to anyone who suffers or is interested in bipolar, mania, mood swings and depression.
this journal entry is dedicated to Kate!
Saturday
after deciding that not much of my body is working- (because of pharmaceutical drugs), inc. head and other male equipment, i have been advised to sell off redundant parts, so far there has been little interest apart from a lapsed Jewish man who wants to by my foreskin, don't think i will manage to sell my brain, as people can tell its done too many miles and its a bit of a right off.
plus points today:
having 2 complete warm meals
waking by 1pm
attempting sleep by 2.30am
buying some new clothes / washing the dirty ones
finding some new interesting pod casts (about 40 hours)
had a hair cut and a beard trim ( i look less like a mountain goat)
apologised to my house mate who i got really angry with the other day
re jibed my laptop and planed my new sound recording rig
stopped my relapsed smoking phase (cigarets are 2 faced, they excite you & depress you, fuck them! mmmmm
not been overwhelmed by my medication
not upset anyone ( to my knowledge)
started a nice writing project with a friend
(and i thought id had a lazy day, maybe motivation is coming back???)
(gawd knows how i fitted all that in, I've been hardly making it out of bed for 2 weeks!)
drug of the day
Ginger Beer
----------------------------
another Monday - wow fantastic im awake! it happened at 9.30 too!
saw 'attack of the penguins last night, and fixed a house-mate up with one of my old computers and internet, hadnt met her properly before- she seems cool.
going to start work soon- see if i can do a 'normal day' sounds boring but it would be a great acheivment!
---
ok haven't achieved much work work, but been awake all day- no naps!
no anxiety attacks!
no sanity lapses (i think)!
Phoned 'MIND' found out about some BP groups + plus a Christmas party, im just trying to imagine how 20 bipolar in one restaurant party???!!!!
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I've never ever bothered with podcasts but am now thinking that maybe I should use my technology to its full potential.
New tattoo pic should be up later.
The prices of pints really does vary ... I like expensive and rare drinks so a pint is 3 plus, though Strongbow earlier cost me 2.70
you'll go through phases where you don't do anything but listen to the iPod or iTunes. then you'll get weeks where you feverishly add everything you can. it's great