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pssst! here's a hint:

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cleanliness is next to godliness

My brother [10 years younger], sister [4 years younger] and I have an on going conversation about which of us is currently the good child, for there can only be one good child and it is always changing.

I was the good child through my college years and my sister occupied the less enviable position of child whose life direction we are very concerned about. Her view of the situation was that she was getting in trouble for doing things I got away with all the time [my view was that she was silly to get caught]. And so it was until I managed to get caught with a pound of a certain green leafy substance. Immediately, my sister and I had changed positions [at this point, my brother was too young to really figure into the equation, although he may have already occupied the position of only family hope - we are not sure].

Over time, the seats have changed based on who is doing well at work, in life, who has been around he family etc. Right now, I think my sister is the good child and my brother's recent conversion to vegatarianism has marked him as the C.W.L.D.W.A.V.C.A in the eyes of my very conservative parents.

This is really more of a family joke among the kids. I guess the point I'm not making is that we've never doubted Mom or Dad. Despite the ever shifting pecking order, they are proud of all of us in some way.

It could be that your mother was honest when she told you that she did not think your absence at mother's day dinner would be a big deal. When the moment actually came, it may have just blindsided her. I'm not sure of your family dynamics, but if I were in your situation [and I have been often - I'm notoriously bad with family birthdays], I'd just apologize, make it up to her in some small way and leave it at that. Maybe she'd just like to have a meal with her boy.

I am sorry about all of the family drama - that stuff is never fun.

When speaking of me, you should most definitely put dancing in qoutes.

Like this : "dancing"

First of all, I know it's hard and you want to lose it and so on, but you didn't put a knife in the woman's chest. The pain will fade, and you are still perfect in her eyes. Just trust me on this one. I've done MUCH MUCH WORSE in the past, and my mom still brags to her friends.

Second, and this probably won't do much good, but I have to say it: Why did she say she was okay with you missing dinner if she wasn't? I know I know... mothers never want to "burden" us, but they're also the queens of passive-aggressive statements. I've learned to take my mom's, "It's okay, honey," and translate that to, "Oh man... I really wanted to see you this weekend... I never get to see your beautiful face... I hope you can come next weekend instead," and tell her, "I really am sorry I got called in to work, but I'll come up next weekend."

Please don't worry too much. She's your mother. She couldn't stop loving you if she tried.

I really think you would have to do something a lot worse than miss dinner to lose perfect standing in the eyes of your mom. We've all messed up before, and (most of) our moms still love us, with the undying, unconditional love only a mother can. Granted, I don't know your mom at all, but maybe it really was okay when she told you it was okay not to come, and then she just had a lonely moment, and didn't feel so good anymore. And tomorrow, she'll be fine, and will feel bad for making you feel bad. Or that could just be something that happens to me. Regardless, I'm willing to bet this will blow over eventually, and you will be the perfect little boy you always were, because that's the place we always seem to hold in the eyes of our parents.

I know, you still feel bad. Try to feel better. I really think that you are a good guy, and that you feel so bad about this just proves my point.

*hugs*

you write well, and i enjoy it. thank you for sharing.

yeh, i figured just "hedgehog" was good enuf in that i could play under that solo or with a group.

that hedgehog.com site is hillarious. for a bit they had this flash promo that just screamed 1999. it was all about monetizing the scalable verticle leverage to create a paradigm shift in e-strategizing markets.

likewise

I saw it ws your b-day! Just wanted to say happy b-day!

Looks like Doughty beat you to it.

Dancing? I suggest copious amounts of liqour. Everything can be blamed/forgiven with the addition of spirits.

Oh and uh, GO...um, anyone but the Yankees!!