I'm going to use this journal for super secret stuff cos I doubt anybody I know would actually pay money for porn/be able to look at this.
Right now I'm actually feeling as emo as my pic makes me out to be. I was ultra-wasted last night which was fun. Saw this girl I had/have a crush on who was/wasn't dating one of my friends and it was totally awkward. I'm not really mad or sad about that specific situation, but it's just one more drop of blood in the bucket for my outlook on girls in general. I've been pretty slutty in the past as a reaction to too many failed romances, and I've decided that being a slut doesn't work either. So I've been trying to turn it around and actually try to care about people again, and it just keeps blowing up in my face. Yeah. And when I was really drunk one of my friends was talking about the girl who did the most damage to me in the past. It made me start to really miss her, and then he told me she was on a cruise right now in the Bahamas, and for some reason conceiving the sheer distance of that made me feel like my soul had fallen out of my body and through the floor.
On a happier note, I'm about to do my radio show in the new on-air room. It feels like a techno night, so Frankie Bones will be shakin' the room.