distant

feel without dying
show without going
walk without seeing
hear without speaking
talk without hurting
friend without flirting
win without smirking
i wanna live again

i have for too long
been a slave to myself
a slave to that which
truly does not matter in life
i don't care anymore
in spite i vow this day
i will walk away
i won't care anymore

i'd like to show you
just who i am inside
who i am when
i put away the facade
but it's easier said then done
when you've lost sense of self
i tried to become someone else
now i'm stuck in his hell

am i me
am i him
am i what i started out with?
i don't know
am i laughing
are these tears
why am i so full of fear?
no way to know

everyone takes a seperate road in this life
man the battle stations now it's not kind outside
deal with rejection and regret, a daily chore
reputation is less than best, you're the whore

wake, child, get up on your feet
breathe, child, it's time to go and meet
go outside
meet the living world
get me outside
save myself
let me outside
wake

am i me
am i him
am i what i started out with?
i don't know
am i laughing
are these tears
why am i so full of fear?
no way to know