disposablehero

well, it's one of those nights again. i sit alone at my computer. i really wanted to go out and do something tonight, but alas, it is a monday night. i really would love to go out with someone. just have a nice dinner or see a movie. i want to do the cute stuff that goes along with dating. the hand holding and playing the shoulder counting game. i'd like to go through the process of getting to know someone better. i'm just at a strange transition period in my life. i feel like if i start trying to date someone that is older than me that i won't be taken seriously. i still live at home with my parents and i'm kinda embarassed by that. i got my ok for my promotion at work, but i just need to get it now so i can make the money to move out and be independant. i'm just waiting for my district manager to give me a store to help manage. i feel that will help in making women take me seriously. i don't really feel like dating a girl that is younger than me because i don't feel that i'll really take them seriously. the lack of relationship experience would be hard to go through again. i've gone though a lot of crap in my day and my friends can vouch for me on that one. they've been there by my side through everything. i'm ready to find someone good. i'm tired of the bad girlfriends that i've had to sift through. i'm tired of the neglect and the cheating that i've had to endure. i just want a nice girl. it's been pretty hard to find one. i know that i will find a great girl one day, but i wish that she would come to me sooner rather than later. my confidence has been mostly destroyed. my ex was a pretty messed up gal. i really haven't been out on the dating scene for the last 3 years or so. i went out once recently and had a good time. had some coffee and watched a couple movies. maybe something like that can happen for me again soon.

i'd like to find a date for the concert i'm going to next month. i really don't know of any single girl that would like to go with me. i guess i better start trying to sweet talk somebody soon. my friends at work have been great with saying that they'd love to set me up with someone, but the only people they know that would be good for me are already in relationships. it's the thought that counts i guess.

i've ranted for too long. i thank those of you that have read this far. i'd appreciate any kind words of wisdom. i guess i'm off to play a computer game or some guitar hero maybe.