I slept for 15 hours last night (into friday, all day)! I never woke up once, I just slept. No drinking or drugs were involved. I know that I have been exhausted, but I didn't think it had come to that. anyway.
One more week, and I will finish an undergraduate career that began 9 years ago...I was probably in Oregon visiting my aunt and grandma 9 years ago today. I might have been skinny dipping all by myself back in the woods behind my aunt's house. I remember, it was getting towards the end of our stay, and so I read until everyone went to bed, and then I went down the path into the woods, dodging bats, until I got to the big streem that runs through their property. I was a little scared about fish getting a little too friendly, or hungry. I swam all night long. When the sun came up I was joined by a beaver. At one point we both had crawled up onto different logs and were staring at each other. I could tell that it was wondering what I would do next, with that tension that smaller animals have around larger ones. Suddenly, I heard this big noise comming from behind me, and terrified I hopped into the water to hide under the log, while the beaver swam away to safety. I peered up from beneath my watery bunker to see two beautiful hot air balloons come soaring into view. I laughed at myself, the beaver, and our differing types of vulnerabiity, while appreciating the grace of the balloons. I eventually climbed out of that stream, dried off, dressed, and went to bed thinking about the one who wasn't there, who I had been missing, and with whom I had a promise to skinny dip. Before leaving for Oregon we had talked about the beautiful things I would see and experience. We decided that when I found myself witness or victem of such pleasure, I should concentrate and visualize it and cast those images out towards North Carolina. I wonder what she was dreaming about that morning in July, nine years ago. I wonder what she's dreaming about tonight, when we're only 20 miles apart.
How lucky I am to still know and care for and be cared about by someone so remarkable. Our relationship did not work out, but we have some of the sweetest memories together. 9 years later.
It's enough for tonight.
diggity
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[7/27/03 - afternoon]
that entry makes me happy.
today, though, i have nothing of import to impart. it's funny how i look forward to reading the journals here. i guess it's nice being social in a not social setting. i don't know...i've never been much of a listserv, or usenet sort of person, so even though i'm comfortable online, i've never been social online. anyway, thanks sg.
diggity
One more week, and I will finish an undergraduate career that began 9 years ago...I was probably in Oregon visiting my aunt and grandma 9 years ago today. I might have been skinny dipping all by myself back in the woods behind my aunt's house. I remember, it was getting towards the end of our stay, and so I read until everyone went to bed, and then I went down the path into the woods, dodging bats, until I got to the big streem that runs through their property. I was a little scared about fish getting a little too friendly, or hungry. I swam all night long. When the sun came up I was joined by a beaver. At one point we both had crawled up onto different logs and were staring at each other. I could tell that it was wondering what I would do next, with that tension that smaller animals have around larger ones. Suddenly, I heard this big noise comming from behind me, and terrified I hopped into the water to hide under the log, while the beaver swam away to safety. I peered up from beneath my watery bunker to see two beautiful hot air balloons come soaring into view. I laughed at myself, the beaver, and our differing types of vulnerabiity, while appreciating the grace of the balloons. I eventually climbed out of that stream, dried off, dressed, and went to bed thinking about the one who wasn't there, who I had been missing, and with whom I had a promise to skinny dip. Before leaving for Oregon we had talked about the beautiful things I would see and experience. We decided that when I found myself witness or victem of such pleasure, I should concentrate and visualize it and cast those images out towards North Carolina. I wonder what she was dreaming about that morning in July, nine years ago. I wonder what she's dreaming about tonight, when we're only 20 miles apart.
How lucky I am to still know and care for and be cared about by someone so remarkable. Our relationship did not work out, but we have some of the sweetest memories together. 9 years later.
It's enough for tonight.
diggity
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[7/27/03 - afternoon]
that entry makes me happy.
today, though, i have nothing of import to impart. it's funny how i look forward to reading the journals here. i guess it's nice being social in a not social setting. i don't know...i've never been much of a listserv, or usenet sort of person, so even though i'm comfortable online, i've never been social online. anyway, thanks sg.
diggity
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It took a long time to get that group up and running, but I'm so happy we have it now.
Your story is beautiful. I'm sorry to hear things didn't work out with the girl. What degree are you pursuing?