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I slept for 15 hours last night (into friday, all day)! I never woke up once, I just slept. No drinking or drugs were involved. I know that I have been exhausted, but I didn't think it had come to that. anyway.

One more week, and I will finish an undergraduate career that began 9 years ago...I was probably in Oregon visiting my aunt and grandma 9 years ago today. I might have been skinny dipping all by myself back in the woods behind my aunt's house. I remember, it was getting towards the end of our stay, and so I read until everyone went to bed, and then I went down the path into the woods, dodging bats, until I got to the big streem that runs through their property. I was a little scared about fish getting a little too friendly, or hungry. I swam all night long. When the sun came up I was joined by a beaver. At one point we both had crawled up onto different logs and were staring at each other. I could tell that it was wondering what I would do next, with that tension that smaller animals have around larger ones. Suddenly, I heard this big noise comming from behind me, and terrified I hopped into the water to hide under the log, while the beaver swam away to safety. I peered up from beneath my watery bunker to see two beautiful hot air balloons come soaring into view. I laughed at myself, the beaver, and our differing types of vulnerabiity, while appreciating the grace of the balloons. I eventually climbed out of that stream, dried off, dressed, and went to bed thinking about the one who wasn't there, who I had been missing, and with whom I had a promise to skinny dip. Before leaving for Oregon we had talked about the beautiful things I would see and experience. We decided that when I found myself witness or victem of such pleasure, I should concentrate and visualize it and cast those images out towards North Carolina. I wonder what she was dreaming about that morning in July, nine years ago. I wonder what she's dreaming about tonight, when we're only 20 miles apart.
How lucky I am to still know and care for and be cared about by someone so remarkable. Our relationship did not work out, but we have some of the sweetest memories together. 9 years later.
It's enough for tonight.

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[7/27/03 - afternoon]
that entry makes me happy.
today, though, i have nothing of import to impart. it's funny how i look forward to reading the journals here. i guess it's nice being social in a not social setting. i don't know...i've never been much of a listserv, or usenet sort of person, so even though i'm comfortable online, i've never been social online. anyway, thanks sg.
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