devildoll

Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking a different language and no one understands me. Sometimes I feel like something is so plain and simple to see, and other people look at the same thing totally dumbfounded. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person with fucking common sense in this world, or at least in MY world. Sometimes I feel like nothing I say is ever heard. Sometimes I feel like I wish I was invisible, so I wouldn't have to talk to people and engage in fake, monotonous, empty chit-chat. You know, like "Hi, How are you today?"...... DO YOU EVEN CARE?! You may act like you do, but I highly doubt it. I'll probably say "I'M FINE," when in reality my life is nearly turned upside down and I'm screaming inside. But no one would ever know it, cuzz I hide it well. I am the master of disguises. PERFECT ME...or so it seems. TOTALLY COOL, CALM AND COLLECTED ME....or so it always seems. Sometimes I feel like I share the characteristics of a serial killer. Scary, isn't it? Does anyone else ever feel that way? I'd say you're pretty screwed up as a person when someone who you REALLY like and admire as a person thinks that you don't like them.

Fuck, I'm hungry. I need to eat. I hate the concept of eating, although I love food. Ironic, isn't it? I can never find the time to eat. Like it's the last priority on my list. Funny, it's one of the few things I need to survive. Everything else than needs to be done is totally and completely unneccessary. Maybe I'm trying to kill myself slowly.

Ha, how's that for a friggin journal.

GREAT, someone's coming....

Don't talk to me .