devil_bitch

So today was actually a pretty good day. I hung out with a good friend this morning. Then came home and crashed again. I was up late last night thinking way too much. Then my mom came home from diaylsis and announced that she wanted Red Lobster for dinner. I swear to you that Red Lobster is her most favorite place to eat in the world. It is the only place she ever wants to go. Seriously. Which sucks for me because I do not like seafood. That and the lobsters in the tank make me very sad and wanna throw up at the same time. God those things are so ugly and you know that they are just going to die soon. I wonder if they get all happy when someone comes to scoop them up out of the tank. Do they think "Hey somebody's coming to take me home!!!" Thet get happy thinking about going back to the ocean and then WHAM!!! Right into a pot of scalding hot water. Yeah. Sucks. Lucky for me my friend picked my son up from school for me and he hung out with her and her kids. These would be the devil children that I talk about. They ended up at Chuck E Cheese. So glad that I missed out on that little excursion. I could not deal with screaming kids today.

I talked to my friend in Hawaii and she and her husband and their new baby are coming back to KC for a visit next month. YEAH!!! I get to see my new little nephew in the flesh. I have to drive to Olathe but I'll live. Maybe I will make an adventure out of it and go to Hot Topic at The Mall of the Great Plains. I heard they have a Sanrio store there too. Double score.

And...I just got done talking to my son's father. He is here for the weekend and is going to pick up my boy in the morning. I know that he is tyring to make an effort to be a better father. I should be happy about it. But I am still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I guess he isn't doing crystal anymore. Still smoking weed but can I really get mad at him for that. No. I can't. It seems like he is finally getting himself back on the right track. Good for him. I just have to distance myself from him. I still love him a whole lot. Which is why I haven't been able to have any type of a relationship in the last 10 years. We went through so much together. I went through so much with him. Off and on since we were 15. Drugs just really tore us apart. We both know that if only he could be responsible and stay clean it would work. I would be there in a heartbeat. But it would take a lot. A LOT!!! Anyway. This is why I hate talking to him. Moving on... Or am I? HA.