I am not going to focus on the negative... I am not going to focus on the negative. I am not going to focus on the negative...
Who am I kidding? As much as I try I am just a negative person. My general persona that I show to the world is always just happy and sweet and crazy fun. That is the person that I long to be 24/7 but my own insecurites always fuck things up.
I make all of these friends online and everyone wants a picture. I hate myself. I hate the way that I look and I don't ever want to share that with people. Well unless I look absolutely drop dead gorgeous fucking hot. So most of the pictures taken of me get deleted or torn up by yours truly if in the traditional form. I am sure that there are some flaoting around somewhere. My friends always threaten to post them on the net. Everyone is so beautiful here...
I have to say that I really admire those people who don't fit the norm on beauty who post their pics. I am just not that open of a person...
I didn't talk to the IT guy at school because well... I always fuck things up and find excuses. I need therapy. LOL.
On a lighter note I am supposed to be hanging on with Lloranda75 Saturday. It is my best friend's bday Friday so we are doing the family dinner thing then a Pahtay!!
Saturday night we are supposed to be going dancing. I love dancing. It is the only time I feel really sexy and I don't care about anyone else. I have conflicting moments. I'm an Aries what can I say.
Oh yes and I am developing a serious crush on a fellow SG member. Imagine that....
Ok...back to today's mantra.
I am not going to focus on the negative... I am not going to focus on the negative. I am not going to focus on the negative...
Who am I kidding? As much as I try I am just a negative person. My general persona that I show to the world is always just happy and sweet and crazy fun. That is the person that I long to be 24/7 but my own insecurites always fuck things up.
I make all of these friends online and everyone wants a picture. I hate myself. I hate the way that I look and I don't ever want to share that with people. Well unless I look absolutely drop dead gorgeous fucking hot. So most of the pictures taken of me get deleted or torn up by yours truly if in the traditional form. I am sure that there are some flaoting around somewhere. My friends always threaten to post them on the net. Everyone is so beautiful here...
I have to say that I really admire those people who don't fit the norm on beauty who post their pics. I am just not that open of a person...
I didn't talk to the IT guy at school because well... I always fuck things up and find excuses. I need therapy. LOL.
On a lighter note I am supposed to be hanging on with Lloranda75 Saturday. It is my best friend's bday Friday so we are doing the family dinner thing then a Pahtay!!
Saturday night we are supposed to be going dancing. I love dancing. It is the only time I feel really sexy and I don't care about anyone else. I have conflicting moments. I'm an Aries what can I say.
Oh yes and I am developing a serious crush on a fellow SG member. Imagine that....
Ok...back to today's mantra.
I am not going to focus on the negative... I am not going to focus on the negative. I am not going to focus on the negative...
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You know, no one can be anything 24/7... Funny story... I used to think of myself as a really pessimistic person, until a friend of mine, while introducing me to family, said I was the most positive person she's ever known. According to her, I find the positive in every situation and I'm always upbeat, happy and supportive. Until that day, I had no idea that was me...
Sadly, I didn't get snowed in
A crush you say?