devil_bitch

So yeah. The chick that I said was going to fucking freak out at work did!! She called the fucking owner at home and told him that the entire store was trashed. Now, I can't claim innoence. I admit that I had a shitty night. I also admit that I straightened the store at least once and I was not responsible for cleaning it after close. I was not the only fucking person there. Granted the other girl that I worked with is a lazy ass fuck. So maybe I should have checked the store before I locked up but you know she is a fucking adult too and I am not going to take the blame for this shit all by myself. I work my ass off every day that I am there. I care more about the customers then about 70% of the other employees. SO today fucking sucked ass. I tell you every where you go there is always some ass kissing back stabbing person that never does a goddamn thing but somehow manages to come accross as the virgin fucking Mary. I need to stop being lazy and look for another job. I also need to stop smoking pot long enough to pass a drug test. *sigh* No matter how hard I try to be an adult someone always fucks with my little happy spot. As soon as things get good expect something to come along and fuck it right up.

Why do dumb ass mutherfuckers always have to take niceness as a sign of weakness? Don't fuck with me and I won't fuck with you. Plain as that. Now I have to start being a bitch to people and segregate myself from them and go back to total work only mode no friends. Some people just piss me off.

I decided to highlight my hair fuschia. We shall see how it turns out. Probably fucked up as usual then I will hate it and have to come up with something else to do to it.

Some days I have really good days and I am so happy. I try to be nice and sweet. People always tell me that they can't imagine me angry or depressed. Yeah well that nice girl is on the inside somewhere and that is what I project to people. But the dark side is always there fighting to get out. I'm tired of caring. Tired of crying. Tired of no one giving a shit. And if one more fucking person tells me that I am just being dramatic.... ARGH!!!!

So of course it's Screwdrivers again tonight.

At least I have something to look forward to. Seraphim Shock is playing at Balanca's on Valentine's Day. I have to skip class but I think it is just what I need. Get dressed up and be Morticia for the night. Let her come out. She wants to play.

You can always tell how pissed off I am by how much profanity I use and the number of times I use the word fuck or some variation.

LOL!!! I has some fucking shit to say!!!