despairfactor

EDIT: I'm gonna get a new tatto.
It will say:
"Broken hearts leave calloused scars"
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So he has "feelings" for someone else.
I want to die

I gave up the one thing that I have ever truely loved.... only I didn't realize it. And when I've finally realized how much he means to me... he's gone and fallen for someone else

He doesn't love me like I love him... doesn't need me like I need him.

I don't know where to go on from here. I'm so confused. I've never felt like this before. I want to punch something, to cry, to puke, to curl up in a hole and die... all at the same time.
I thought I knew what it meant to hurt. But I was so wrong. I feel so lost and empty. I feel like I'm walking in a daze... my life makes no sense anymore. I don't know what I'm doing on this earth... there's no point anymore.

I'm sitting here with my polar ice... and my music, crying. I lost it all. I lost it all....... I lost it all.
And I don't want to be here anymore



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There was always a warmth between us... your wounds are opening wide... and they might be just my size