thanks for all the well wishing and what not. if you can tell by my alliteration, i'm doing marginally better.
mercie's blog for today (1/9) has a year in review theme, with accompanying pictures. it's kind of weird that i'm only mentioned a few times, considering the past 4 years before that. ...damn.
and it's mostly because i spent alot of my year alone...
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mercie's blog for today (1/9) has a year in review theme, with accompanying pictures. it's kind of weird that i'm only mentioned a few times, considering the past 4 years before that. ...damn.
and it's mostly because i spent alot of my year alone...
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3 episodes in one night.
a wave hits you...warm and fuzzy, but more like nausea. forget who or where i am. collapse...lay paralyzed on the floor.
fade to black.
fortunately only a few minutes/half hour this time, but i'm tired of this.
also, i wasn't aware the single off alk3's new album was out. it's very old school.
update:
oh god. 4. i blacked out...
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a wave hits you...warm and fuzzy, but more like nausea. forget who or where i am. collapse...lay paralyzed on the floor.
fade to black.
fortunately only a few minutes/half hour this time, but i'm tired of this.
also, i wasn't aware the single off alk3's new album was out. it's very old school.
update:
oh god. 4. i blacked out...
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downedcity:
whoa this sounds pretty alright. better than what I heard of the last album. you need to keep gettin better and better and maybe we can go check alk3 out when they come around.
keighlanight:
thank you! lol ..I am still a work in progress....I guess is pretty intense at times..but I'll live. Just waiting till I can submit my next set..wooot.
for life's not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis
And death i think is no parenthesis
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lucine:
I think you are such a beautiful person...I wish you knew this for yourself, maybe in time you will feel as beautiful as you are...its important that you know this. and you should be told everyday that your wonderful.
lucine:
you make me smile. alot
alotlong and whiny post ahead:
so, i'm turning 26 on the 28th of this month.
i can't believe it. i fucking hate it. but i guess it can't be worse than last year's (in which i broke up with my gf of 2 years right before), or the year before that during which said ex was in england. i got no party, barely any presents....
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so, i'm turning 26 on the 28th of this month.
i can't believe it. i fucking hate it. but i guess it can't be worse than last year's (in which i broke up with my gf of 2 years right before), or the year before that during which said ex was in england. i got no party, barely any presents....
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lucine:
hang in there sweet heart. You have an amazing heart and things will work out in the end baby...remember it cant rain all the time...your so great you deserve way better then that love
lucine:
oh Im glad your gaining a little weight baby you need to be healthy and take care of yourself.
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laceyk:
I like the blonde!
kas:
cuties!!!
Not much Friday night...
the damage is done.
the damage is done.
laceyk:
I am so out of touch with music, I swear!
left 4 dead 2 is pretty awesome. nothing like spending 4 hours this morning shooting zombies in the face.
you know what else is awesome? the new electric president album. i pimped the hell out of their last one, "sleep well," before. it's called "the violent blue" and it comes out sometime soon, but it leaked already.
DO YOU DARE DOUBT THEM?! then here's one...
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you know what else is awesome? the new electric president album. i pimped the hell out of their last one, "sleep well," before. it's called "the violent blue" and it comes out sometime soon, but it leaked already.
DO YOU DARE DOUBT THEM?! then here's one...
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laceyk:
Get some sleep!!!
I love video games so much. I think I have wasted 10% of my life playing them.
I love video games so much. I think I have wasted 10% of my life playing them.
gradually...getting there. i guess. this has been such a fuck awful week. still nauseous. and disappointed. or proud? i'm putting on some weight. kinda on purpose. everyone used to always rag on me cause i was kinda chubby, so now that i have body dysmorphia they just rag on me because i'm "too thin" and i think they're fucking crazy.
but right at the peak...
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but right at the peak...
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laceyk:
Be proud. You have chosen not to take the easy way. "Do not go softly into that good night.". You have chosen to chose your path.
Christmas has so many expectations which are so unfair. Christmas's are different every year and we celebrate it differently every year as well.
I think as you begin to feel better you will leave the house more. You will be feeling more like who you are.
It is also good to gain a bit of weight back - give your body the nutrients it needs to win this battle.
Christmas has so many expectations which are so unfair. Christmas's are different every year and we celebrate it differently every year as well.
I think as you begin to feel better you will leave the house more. You will be feeling more like who you are.
It is also good to gain a bit of weight back - give your body the nutrients it needs to win this battle.
As of now, I have officially been clean of any substance for about a day and a half. it's the longest i've gone in almost a year, i'd bargain.
i have no idea what to feel. i'll tell you what i DO feel, however, which is shit awful, but better than i was a few days ago. now i just feel lifeless...vertigo, i'm breathless all...
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i have no idea what to feel. i'll tell you what i DO feel, however, which is shit awful, but better than i was a few days ago. now i just feel lifeless...vertigo, i'm breathless all...
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downedcity:
I'm proud of you, keep it up
mercie:
I love you my bestest friend, call me if you need anything to make your life easier. You know I'll help you as much as is in my power! ♥
i forgot how much this song fits well. my ex definitely didn't want me to continue my abuse, so i suffered through...but with our falling out later anyway, and my new addiction, it's almost perfect.
clinics, doctors, horrible pains/aches/cold sweats. for about 4 months i've been recovering from an opiate addiction. and while it's mostly my fault (for going along with it at first then...
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clinics, doctors, horrible pains/aches/cold sweats. for about 4 months i've been recovering from an opiate addiction. and while it's mostly my fault (for going along with it at first then...
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mercie:
I can imagine how miserable it is. But we both know this is it, you don't wanna be on that shit for the rest of your life like some people are. It'll just make you ugly, and no one wants that. 
xoxo
xoxo
boogieman0330:
Brother keep going and have faith in whatever gives you hope. Merry Christimas.
Even now I am looking at tickets, and the truth is I do just swallow that damn fee.
They are so evil.