i think i'm done.
i don't know how i developed epilepsy. it was probably all the drugs. mercie may have introduced me to them, but it was my own stupid fault to go in as deep as i did.
i didn't ask to be born bipolar. i've been fighting it for over 13 years now. everytime i win, it's a pyrrhic victory. less and less...
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i don't know how i developed epilepsy. it was probably all the drugs. mercie may have introduced me to them, but it was my own stupid fault to go in as deep as i did.
i didn't ask to be born bipolar. i've been fighting it for over 13 years now. everytime i win, it's a pyrrhic victory. less and less...
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vittore:
It's not all bad. I've been living with it for a good while, and medication really does keep it tame, for the most part. Plus, if you're really awesome, you can get a service dog that can detect your seizures before they happen. 
mercie:
everyone knows the 6th dimension is all pudding.
so, that makes it...5 blackouts in a row now? this depakote ain't doin shit, to put it in such a manner.
also, someone on OKCupid started talking to me, and somehow we got on the subject of boobs and undercover fatties. i said that while i'm a face/hair person and i don't care about tits, i think really huge ones look kinda wonky, all veiny...
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also, someone on OKCupid started talking to me, and somehow we got on the subject of boobs and undercover fatties. i said that while i'm a face/hair person and i don't care about tits, i think really huge ones look kinda wonky, all veiny...
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downedcity:
How long does it take to work, and should Depakote be taken for long periods of time?
In clinical studies, patients have been found to respond to the effects of Depakote after just ten days of treatment.
http://www.toddlertime.com/med/depakote.htm
hang in there man. I want you to get better so we can hang out!
laceyk:
Whatever, she wasn't even being honest with her photos, so screw her/
christ, i guess i'm uninteresting again, huh? 
i had another black out. i'm sure you don't care, or you're thinking "no shit," but 3 in a row? it's destroying me. seriously. i can't take this anymore.
i had another black out. i'm sure you don't care, or you're thinking "no shit," but 3 in a row? it's destroying me. seriously. i can't take this anymore.
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caralee:
boooooooourns
iron def? i hear clams + pumpkin seeds are AMAZING iron sources.
keep it sleezy!
i totally want to be this person
iron def? i hear clams + pumpkin seeds are AMAZING iron sources.
keep it sleezy!
i totally want to be this person
missknox:
your not uninteresting lol .. thanks though i really like it when people appreciate my writing
your not uninteresting lol .. thanks though i really like it when people appreciate my writingso...i suppose it's not ironic, but entirely fitting anyway, is that i had ANOTHER blackout yesterday. i don't remember much, and thankfully i think my amitriptyline limited my time, but it's still scary waking up at 4am and not knowing where you are or what you've been doing for the past 8 hours.
apparently i sent mercie a nigh uncomprehensible text message (and i had...
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apparently i sent mercie a nigh uncomprehensible text message (and i had...
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downedcity:
what are you up to tonight? I could come up and we can make it a real fright night for the ladies of b-more.
apparently my brain exhibits some spiking in the alpha waves, "suggestive of having a primary epilepsy disorder."
i'm not sure if i'm happy that i'm at least a step closer to finding out what's wrong, or i'm really upset that i'm possibly epileptic. i thought it was mostly genetic, too, and there's almost no history of it in my family...just some distant cousin i think....
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i'm not sure if i'm happy that i'm at least a step closer to finding out what's wrong, or i'm really upset that i'm possibly epileptic. i thought it was mostly genetic, too, and there's almost no history of it in my family...just some distant cousin i think....
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melaniek:
hugs <3
austere:
Caesar was epileptic. just don't get stabbed by mad haters and it'll all be good. i'll give you brain massage.
so, i FINALLY made an appointment to see my neurologist on friday. why not sooner? well, for one thing, i figured they would've fucking called me instead of telling me TODAY "oh yeah, i think something was on that test." really? fucking REALLY? anyway, so now i'm goddamn anxious as hell. it's seriously bad...my little two week long "vacation" (aka blackout central) earlier this month...
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mercie:
I'm listening to (CAT 00897-AA1).
You. ♥
You. ♥
austere:
unidentified submerged objects? i think thats what theyre called. it might not be uso at all.
whats going on with your brains?
whats going on with your brains?
i'm kinda surprised people liked the previous video. awesome. well, here's another one on a completely different topic! it's about the creation/end of the universe interspersed with some historical facts. it's not heavy on the physics (it's there but it's not necessary to understand it to get the points, i'm sure as hell no physicist).
A universe from nothing: (skip the first few minutes, they're...
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missknox:
i liked the last video too ppl oughta care more about those things no? i like the videos ur posting lately been interesting
austere:
i love infinity. because of infinity, we each have always and will always exist. every moment is constantly popping in and out of different universes
ever wonder why i chose anthropology? take a little look at this half hour video on self and how places like this are shaping self indetity: a digital ethnography, very similar to research i've done myself.
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downedcity:
thats awesome, I'll have to finish watching later
caralee:
oooh this looks so groovy. am bookmarking to watch after i read some malleus maleficarum [for fun?]
cheers!
cheers!
so, i honestly only remember about 5 minutes of the past 2 months; i remember waking up AFTER having a massive blackout about 2 weeks ago, i remember mercie leaving (or the afternoon before, anyway, cause we did coffee), and i remember wondering yesterday where the fuck my brain's been.
i haven't missed anything important, have i? no...new world orders? no space pope? no one...
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i haven't missed anything important, have i? no...new world orders? no space pope? no one...
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downedcity:
sigh. we should go get some lunch or coffee sometime man.
i took a 2 hour nap in the middle of the day. why was i so tired? why, i played video games for about 5 hours today, and read bullshit online for the other part of my day with a cat on my lap, eating all the while.
my life SOUNDS awesome, but in reality, it's really fucking boring and kinda pathetic.
my life SOUNDS awesome, but in reality, it's really fucking boring and kinda pathetic.
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mercie:
I hope you're doing okay. Don't forget to text me once in awhile, meow. ♥
austere:
nah robots are known for overstyling. this way is more spontaneous and natural.
you should get a pet monkey. cats are great, but i think the monkey would be more interactive.
you should get a pet monkey. cats are great, but i think the monkey would be more interactive.
today i'm on my own again. technically i have been for quite awhile. i push people away so much, always counting on them to be around when my mood shifts. i take everything for granted.
so today i'm without a friend. i'm without a lover, i'm without my worst enemy, i'm without order to my chaos and our occasional switching of the roles. and i...
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so today i'm without a friend. i'm without a lover, i'm without my worst enemy, i'm without order to my chaos and our occasional switching of the roles. and i...
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missknox:
lol well unfortunately i have this disposition were awkwardness catches my attention more then most things
lucine:
Oh hun Please you need to love yourself...you seem like such a great person to be so sad and unhappy with themselves I hope you find your way soon love.
mercie....i wish you the best. i really, truly, honestly do.
i owe you some of the best and the worst times of my life. i can't entirely blame you for the absolute bottom my life is at now, since it was my own dumbass decision to continue.
i'm sorry i was a terrible boyfriend. i'm sorry i'm a horrible friend. i hope you find happiness,...
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i owe you some of the best and the worst times of my life. i can't entirely blame you for the absolute bottom my life is at now, since it was my own dumbass decision to continue.
i'm sorry i was a terrible boyfriend. i'm sorry i'm a horrible friend. i hope you find happiness,...
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mercie:
who knows what will happen. I'm just going to keep floating where the breeze takes me. I'll be happier for awhile. And maybe this is the right thing to do. I guess we'll see. The fact still remains that even though you think you were a let down, you weren't. Don't be so hard on yourself, indeed... you've also been retarded enough to put up with ME for 5 years. And that's not the end of an era. We are, and always will be, the best of friends.
Now, here's one for you. It should take you back.
Pay attention to the lyrics now. You know what a lyrics whore I really am.
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die.
Now, here's one for you. It should take you back.
Pay attention to the lyrics now. You know what a lyrics whore I really am.
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die.
austere:
i suck at football
haiku is where i excel
and cunnilingus
haiku is where i excel
and cunnilingus