desormais

wait. fuck. seriously, look into disability. I'm SURE you can get paid off of disability if this is how you are, even if it's just for now, you need all the help you can get. And then you can focus on working from home after you're feeling better and have proper medication, and then even working out of the home (if you want to of course) once you're well again. Just do one thing at a time mister, and everything will start to work. At least, thats what I keep telling myself, anyway. It seems to be working out once in awhile.

You definitely can't see the cars now. My camera died while I was in the middle of uploading the videos from Day 2 (this morning), those are gonna blow people's minds (who obviously aren't in MD to witness this frigging mess) when they see them. But I have cigarettes and alcohol, so I'm good, no need to go anywhere.

Did you hear the fucking THUNDER last night?? I thought I was going nuts but it really was thunder!

actually i did have to attend one of those when i was unemployed. It was right after a snowstorm too, parking in Baltimore City was hell on earth. It sucked, I remember quite clearly. Hated it. And it was insulting. It's like bitch, I'm not unemployed because I'm dumb and can't get a job, I have 4 more months of getting paid to do NOTHING and I'm not getting a job before I have to.

I haven't forgotten your past birthdays, have i? of course not, silly.

Facebook harasses me now. All the adverts on the right badger me about being thirty. I'm changing my birthday.

I know you've been dying to do that for years and years.... but I still think it's gross. : /
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