desidia

just... just kill me now.

I'm tired.

I'm gonna take a nap now. try not to let me wake up.

so it just struck me.

my last relationship ended... sometime in spring and I was thinking, why was I even dating at all? sure I know why I was dating her, gorgeous chauffer, nymphomaniac sugar momma but honestly I can't understand why I was there in the first place.

It was because I was a different person then, back when I was 18. she took...
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fine. i guess i'll play with the new gimmicks.

but 5 favourite girls? c'mon, whats next, a boys only group?

I am SO FUCKING BORED. Someone call me and ask to me to do something. okay, actually having a digital pen, which means crazy computer art is pretty cool and killing some time.

I'd rather be out doing something though... that doesn't cost money because...
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fuck. snow. this ruins all my plans of running errands. maybe. just maybe, I'll go out anyway. especially if it stops snowing.

I was going to go out and spoil myself on my birthday, buy wolves of the calla, a garbage bag of black socks and get my tongue pierced. then I deposited my pay check and it told me how little I have. Now...
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I wouldn't feel so bad about only 3 people showing up to my party except THAT WAS MY ONLY FUCKING 21st BIRTHDAY

you can have your eyes picked by crows for all i care. if I didn't spend all my cash on pristine cases and bottles of alchohol no one would open I'd go out and get shit-faced and puke in the streets tonight, in...
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okay, fine, I'm back.
but am I "back" back? no, not really

I come home with so much dissapointment, so much doubt, but so very entertained. it was quite the night to be sure, its everything after I'm afraid of.

I'm glad I got to see everyone on Halloween because I'm installing Final Fantasy XI as we speak, and once its up, you will never see me again

MWAH AH HA HA HA HA HA

*rocks out...
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drunk hans says stuff. BLARG

fear me. i have no sence of balance and can't stop eating pringles. you wish you were me.

no really, you do, you just don't know why, and I can't tell you. its a dark little secret, but trust me


maybe crash now. maybe play video games
maybe... pass out

it was about fucking time I updated. but I'm lazy
Pirate Thursday was great as always especially w/ Flux and Thursday! I felt fine the next morning, but once I started walking to the bus my legs said "uhh... wtf are you doing?" and I said "walking" and they said "..."

been working on a birthday party invitation list, but all its 2/3's suicidegirls so...
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Okay okay, you people obviously are all retards, don't know me at all, or are so smart you played along just to piss me off.

No,I don't want to actually marry Kuzutetsu, so much as I want to make fun of him endlessly until my tongue falls out and I can no longer roll my eyes, goddamn you people are dense. Now I'm exposed...
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I know I'm the #1 hit when you googles search desidia, but apparently my livejournal is also the #1 hit if you search for "portland djarum". people searching to buy cloves in pdx get me

I feel extremely awesome, but I just gave out my livejournal out to a million people...

d00d, I tried it out, and I was actually only #10
got a pretty...
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Dear Goldfrapp,
When you go on stage in a short skirt people can catch glances of your underwear.
love, Hans

So today was work, Goldfrapp, pirate thursdays, computer then final fantasy tactics advance.

Yesterday was buying Goldfrapp tickets, running into hot hot Nala, crazy crazy not fun adventures in finances, then buying a Gamecube just for FFTA, then amazing adventures with Al, Flux & Scylla...
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