I really need to take myself to sleep..
I've been pulling this 3 am shit all week.
getting to work at 8:30 or 9 .. when I should be there at 8..
But I feel as though I've missed out on things.
And Im trying to get myself back into "life" as its called.
FUCK TIME WARNER
packed up all my music equipment.. was getting redundant..
so i'll give it a month or so..
ummm
Fuck girls and guys that are full of themselves.
and people who attempt to be manipulative and end up running game on themselves.. its quite amusing..
I laugh with the heretics.
I met nice ppl tonite and had a good time. which doesnt havent often.
Im tired of the ppl I know..
there so predictable.. nothing ever changes.. no enthraling conversation.
ppl I really dont have anything in common with.
Liz, very intriguing girl she is. I've managed to have 2 hour long talks with her about things.. I've never had the oppurtunity to discuss... She has a very interesting perception of things. Im tired of conversations with people who agree with me.. I want debates.. and if you debate.. BACK IT UP.. make me see your point of view.. tell me something i dont know..
saw nora tonite the first time in about 5 years... she's still fucking nuts and funny.. she told me that Q had a kid.. And Im like wtf.. SHE, has a kid now.. Wow
guess I havent seen her longer that what I thought.. I miss her alot.
I still and always will love her..
doesnt matter if i see her again or not..
But when I think about.. Im filled with regret.
Not to the point of us being together because it wasnt like that.. she was. I dont know.. we went through a lot together.. we're both crazy though..
and distrusting so.. I guess its suppose to be this way.
Its funny how when im in this current state of mind.. which isnt too often..
that i can look back and see things with a different perception..
but i've been living life through a memory soo long..
And i cant let this happen anylonger..
I just need to go forward.. into.. nothingness.
I've been burned up soo many times ..
and im trying to figure out why.
i mean.. none of them were even worth my time..
not saying that im "the shit".. but damn.. im worth more than what all of them could give me..
I dont need your love.. Its worthless..
I just need to go forward.. into.. nothingness.
Funny how tables turn huh..?
I've been pulling this 3 am shit all week.
getting to work at 8:30 or 9 .. when I should be there at 8..
But I feel as though I've missed out on things.
And Im trying to get myself back into "life" as its called.
FUCK TIME WARNER
packed up all my music equipment.. was getting redundant..
so i'll give it a month or so..
ummm
Fuck girls and guys that are full of themselves.
and people who attempt to be manipulative and end up running game on themselves.. its quite amusing..
I laugh with the heretics.
I met nice ppl tonite and had a good time. which doesnt havent often.
Im tired of the ppl I know..
there so predictable.. nothing ever changes.. no enthraling conversation.
ppl I really dont have anything in common with.
Liz, very intriguing girl she is. I've managed to have 2 hour long talks with her about things.. I've never had the oppurtunity to discuss... She has a very interesting perception of things. Im tired of conversations with people who agree with me.. I want debates.. and if you debate.. BACK IT UP.. make me see your point of view.. tell me something i dont know..
saw nora tonite the first time in about 5 years... she's still fucking nuts and funny.. she told me that Q had a kid.. And Im like wtf.. SHE, has a kid now.. Wow
guess I havent seen her longer that what I thought.. I miss her alot.
I still and always will love her..
doesnt matter if i see her again or not..
But when I think about.. Im filled with regret.
Not to the point of us being together because it wasnt like that.. she was. I dont know.. we went through a lot together.. we're both crazy though..
and distrusting so.. I guess its suppose to be this way.
Its funny how when im in this current state of mind.. which isnt too often..
that i can look back and see things with a different perception..
but i've been living life through a memory soo long..
And i cant let this happen anylonger..
I just need to go forward.. into.. nothingness.
I've been burned up soo many times ..
and im trying to figure out why.
i mean.. none of them were even worth my time..
not saying that im "the shit".. but damn.. im worth more than what all of them could give me..
I dont need your love.. Its worthless..
I just need to go forward.. into.. nothingness.
Funny how tables turn huh..?
illmaticdove:
He needs to smile because no one is worth not smiling and enjoying yourself.