delusion

I know that I've said it a hundred times before
but everytime I say I love him, I mean it that much more.

I was briefly hospitalized yesterday and pale_blue_eyes proved himself, again, to be the most amazing man I've ever known. He was there every second of the way, holding my hand and drying my tears. They had trouble inserting the IV and as they were struggling with the needle, I looked up and he was there at the foot of my bed, with tears in his eyes. They had me change into a paper gown and I had a thong on and was too embarrassed to have my bum hanging out, so he went to the bathroom and took off his boxers so that I could wear them and be more comfortable. He called my mom and kept her calm. Then he held me, gently, lovingly, all night long. This is the realest thing I have ever known.