delusion

No hangover! Thats why vodka is my friend, it takes so little to make me drunk that its not enough to make me sick.
I think I'm going to sacrifice my white girl skin to the greater good of "I need the smell of the ocean. I need it's noises in my ears". I hate the way it sounds but going to the beach yesterday alone was so amazing and relaxing. I feel like I haven't had anytime for myself and I really need to learn to be alone. I never want to feel like I need company to be content.
I was telling my sister most of the above earlier and she says " God you're emo, just go to the beach and stop crying". Fuck, thats why I need that girl around.