delusion

i am lonely & i'm not alone which always serves to make things worse. i am not watching you, no worries... i was thinking alone the lines of Trae: commonly used as a pet name. Used as a shortened form of a family name in the tercerary. generally believed to be a derivitive of the spanish "tres"
i feel so fucking goofy using a little alias. i feel like the kids in junior high who forgot that they were white, middle class dorks like me and tried to be "gangstas" calling themselves things like "pony boy" and "sad girl". oh man. thats gay.



i really don't get this last entry. if you would, please break it apart and explain...i'm a bit concerned now....

also, questions answered and posted in my journal.




-pb

i wasn't a bit suprised by your sherlock holmes-ness. comes with the territory of being an observant girl-wonder.

you thought of me today whilst getting sick of your profile pic?




-pb

Yes. Yahoo IM?

-Josh

Yes, i am still on, but don't go to any trouble.

-Josh

lol yeah well I am trying to avoid work. so when I see a comment......

By the way I am notorious for accidently deleting friends so If I do..... never intentional and I will ask you to be my friend as soon as I notice, you would think I would learn that is the one place you don't want to click on someone's name but I never seem to, some people have actually been deleted twice....surprised they still speak to me.

Thanks for the nice words. I think TS is so dense that Id really have to study it to get it all. So much of the symbolism is really obscure. Id never seen poetry with footnotes before. Nevertheless, I loved wasteland and 4 quartets. And TS can be fun too like the hippopotamus and the book of practical cats. My high school did a production of cats (I was skimbleshanks ). I intended to read his plays and essays, but I only got through the cocktail party which became a favorite.

Swiss airlines really makes the twelve hour flight more bearable. They have video screens on the back of the seat in front of you and you can select from a number of movies, cartoons and documentaries. Last time I watched a couple of documentaries on Edvard Munchs life and the making of the scream. There was also one about the theft of the scream and the operations that led to its recovery. Pretty neato.

Ive enjoyed your journal writing. Ive had a zine project on the back burner for years now. My friend has probably forgotten that this is still on his website (the info is totally out of date). But Im done with school (FOREVER!) in June and can finally write and read whatever I want! Ive set aside my tax returns for printing and such, so it may actually happen this time. In any case, I hope youll send me some writing. If you ditch the scene, put me on your AIM and say hi (do so regardless).

Best, E

>strip clubs never made any sense to me. don't get me
>wrong, few things make me happier than a naked girl
>gyrating her titties in my face, but isnt it a bit like walking
>into a restaraunt hungry, looking at all the food you wish
>you could be eating and then leaving without ever taking
>a bite?

who says you can't bite?

no, really, that's why i'm not a frequent visitor to the clubs. but every now and then, it's nice to go to the orchard and look at all the different kinds of beautiful fruit. and then go home and bite into your girl's plumskinz.

If you do leave, you will be missed. You are very talented and beautiful. I understand your explination. You're a gem. You make me want to be a better person...
Whatever your decision is you are supported.

jerome from the fucking time. i'm over the moon that you appreciate that.

very good questions. you'll have to give me a few hours to come up with thoughtful and eloquent replies.

thanks for posting my angry scratches on the poetry thread. still doesn't compare.


-pb

Hiya, beautiful! How's your day going?

I went and said hello to your boy per your request.

How much you want to bet he becomes even more addicted than you are?

I hope this finds you having a great day.

Peace and much

Oh yeah, and one of these too

-Josh

destructed for ya


-pb

[Edited on Apr 18, 2004 5:41PM]

had to rewrite it. on its way.


-pb

That's too cool about the money, damn i hope you get it.

How are you and your man? Still feeling ignored? Am i prying? Shall i fuck off and die?

If i don't speak to you sooner than i hope you have a good weekend as well.

-Josh

I do care. It's odd and i don't want to sound creepy but when i met you i felt an odd sort of connection (or as much as one can feel given the means by which we communicate).

I am also very sorry that you have to feel the ways you do with your man in your relationship. I can relate, unfortunately. I've been married for over eight years now and there seems to be more fights now than there is ever love making. I love her but it doesn't always help, y'know?

Your welcome on the Smuffy thing, pretty awesome, isn't she?

-Josh

Three in a row is a testament to my lack of coolness. We have been together just over 3 years but not living together, possibly soon. I completely know what you mean about not talking to people you know because they will judge. I have a lot of friends who don't understand relationships, or look for any reason to down on someone else's. Sorry he's being shitty right now, you know it'll get better. My AIM name is Allison982 if you wanna talk, but be sure to mention SG, I'm mean to random people who IM me.

I noticed that you're having trouble posting pictures in threads. It is not possible to post to a picture that exists only in your computer, it must be online somewhere. Click the link for instructions: http://suicidegirls.com/help/#faq16.4

I always had a penis in my bed...it's overrated

hey...feel free to quote me anytime.

its ok, i too think college frats are absurd and a waste of time.

Righto on the Frat thing. I never liked 'em. Although I have a few friends that joined them when they went off to college. I just find the whole idea annoying, and I'm quite happy that my art college would never have anything like them.