i feel like i'm always looking at my life through other people's eyes. if i just stay inside myself, i'm happy. i'm 24 and i own my own condo and car. i'm trying to get my writing career started. i'm about to be working in a bookstore. i live with my love and my cat finally gets to be inside and i have gerbilies and stuff and i can do what i want and i'm pretty happy.
but i keep thinking of how my family is seeing me. how i went to college and still don't have a "real" job. and i'm 24 and still don't know what i want to do with my life except write. that's all i've ever wanted to do and i should be happy with myself since i'm trying to make that life happen. it shouldn't matter what my family thinks because the only ones that matter seem to support me. what does it matter what my dad thinks when he won't even come down to see me like he says he will and his side of the family doesn't even stay in touch really.
i don't know. i'm trying.
but i keep thinking of how my family is seeing me. how i went to college and still don't have a "real" job. and i'm 24 and still don't know what i want to do with my life except write. that's all i've ever wanted to do and i should be happy with myself since i'm trying to make that life happen. it shouldn't matter what my family thinks because the only ones that matter seem to support me. what does it matter what my dad thinks when he won't even come down to see me like he says he will and his side of the family doesn't even stay in touch really.
i don't know. i'm trying.
HI.
I have two uncles (and their families) and a pair of grandparents that live in (or around) Atlanta. So, hi, again, person who lives 'near' my family.
And your birthday is four days (and three years) after mine! Hello again, fellow Christmas-time birthday person!
I was reading your update, and thought, wow, she's worried about what her family thinks about her when she owns her condo, has a job, is working on a writing career, and seems to be fairly well aware of what she wants and is working to get it. From that description, your family should be damn proud of you.
I'm sorry to hear that your father and his family aren't making an effort to be active in your life. It sounds like he's missing out on a really cool person.
So, back to the plants, do you grow anything at your condo? We lived in apartments for about seven years, and I was always growing things in containers on my various porches, windowstills, etc. At our last place (we recently bought a house and I'm still working on figuring out the yard) I was growing about 3-5 kinds of tomatoes in containers on my balcony.
Have a great weekend!