my teacher emailed me about dropping her class and said i should never have dropped a class, much less a workshop, without talking to her first. how am i supposed to know, it's not like she's my advisor or anything. i don't even have an advisor. i have no idea what i'm doing. she said that if i'm going to be staying in the program i should always be taking a workshop. you know, i really thought that when you started grad school they would give you a little direction.
i don't even know what i'm doing here. part of me just wants to drop out. but then i'm just giving up and everyone in my whole family would be disappointed in me, plus my love's family. he's probably the only one who would understand and be supportive anyway.
i'm just so tired. and i can't even register for next semester because they never got my final transcript (which i did realize they needed until i went to register) you think they would have sent a letter or an email or something about that. i told my undergrad school to send it, but they still say they haven't gotten it and i can't register. which just makes me want to drop out more.
i really just don't know if i'm the grad school type of person. it's not like it's too hard, i just don't know what i'm supposed to be getting out of it. i don't write like the rest of them and i don't want to. i'm trying to open windows to different worlds not sit around getting off on my clever use of a certain phrase or technique.
yeah, i know. bitch, bitch, bitch, whine, whine, whine.
who wants to come to my pity party.
anyway, halloween rocked. i just wish the next one wasn't so far away.
i don't even know what i'm doing here. part of me just wants to drop out. but then i'm just giving up and everyone in my whole family would be disappointed in me, plus my love's family. he's probably the only one who would understand and be supportive anyway.
i'm just so tired. and i can't even register for next semester because they never got my final transcript (which i did realize they needed until i went to register) you think they would have sent a letter or an email or something about that. i told my undergrad school to send it, but they still say they haven't gotten it and i can't register. which just makes me want to drop out more.
i really just don't know if i'm the grad school type of person. it's not like it's too hard, i just don't know what i'm supposed to be getting out of it. i don't write like the rest of them and i don't want to. i'm trying to open windows to different worlds not sit around getting off on my clever use of a certain phrase or technique.
yeah, i know. bitch, bitch, bitch, whine, whine, whine.
who wants to come to my pity party.
anyway, halloween rocked. i just wish the next one wasn't so far away.
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fragile21:
I'm afraid of grad school. It sounds like too much kissing ass. I just want to be free to do my own thing and think the same way. You know I'd understand. I wouldn't blame you at all. Hell, it seems like grad school is more stress than it's worth, especially for what you plan on doing.
strikinghelix:
hmm--was just checking out other folks in my area, which is technically Athens but I spend alot of time in ATL. I empathize with your feelings of leaving school--shit, I should be at the lab right now but I hate that place. It sounds like you are studying English or a related subject, which I'm sure is a much different experience than being in the department of genetics here at UGA--I think having a degree in my field is more useful than in yours--I think with creative writing that employers tend to evaluate applicants more subjectively, whereas if I don't have an MS or PhD on my resume I won't even get interviewed for some positions. But that's really just a guess since I've never tried to publish any of my creative works. Not that I'm trying to tell you to quit--but my personal opinion is that if you don't feel like they are at least providing you with an opportunity to enrich yourself, then there is little reason to be there. Whether or not you take advantage of such opportunity is a completely different matter. Well as you can see I talk alot--glad Halloween was fun--mine rocked too. Did you see Rasputina Sat. night?--alot of folks at the party I was at went but I stayed--OK seeya later!