2nd post....
so i think i am almost cured of the whole alcohol and strippers thing and what not. well the drinking heavily part but i still would like to go out and have a beer or two with my buds but i dunno whats going on in that department, except that the two buds that i do have need jobs and money so we can go drinking and what not they're own places would not hurt either.
and i am once again womanless i fucked up this time i know i did but i am totally only 50 percent to blame on this one okay maybe 70-80percent but it is a really hard thing to change this one (for lack of arguement we will call her amy)was uncomfortable with her body and what not. and did not like my rubbing of her in any once spot i mean i thats really hard it has been like my signature move for like ten years and other stuff but i mean come own thats my move!!!!! i mean i can not just back the formula now ive wrote the book on that u know i am too old to start trying new stuff. right?? i mean i think so. oh and the part that i thought was important to me was i did not want to rush into the whole sex thing i wanted to build something real with her but i guess she was just uninterested. i mean the whorst case scenario right now is to me is i dont wanna be a daddy just yet i mean i am sooo not ready to give up any type of partying and i like not having to check in with anybody or anything or worrying about paul jr being all home alone and what not, or diapers and all that shit.
so any tips/advice or anything u wanna say to keep me from fucking up?
so i think i am almost cured of the whole alcohol and strippers thing and what not. well the drinking heavily part but i still would like to go out and have a beer or two with my buds but i dunno whats going on in that department, except that the two buds that i do have need jobs and money so we can go drinking and what not they're own places would not hurt either.
and i am once again womanless i fucked up this time i know i did but i am totally only 50 percent to blame on this one okay maybe 70-80percent but it is a really hard thing to change this one (for lack of arguement we will call her amy)was uncomfortable with her body and what not. and did not like my rubbing of her in any once spot i mean i thats really hard it has been like my signature move for like ten years and other stuff but i mean come own thats my move!!!!! i mean i can not just back the formula now ive wrote the book on that u know i am too old to start trying new stuff. right?? i mean i think so. oh and the part that i thought was important to me was i did not want to rush into the whole sex thing i wanted to build something real with her but i guess she was just uninterested. i mean the whorst case scenario right now is to me is i dont wanna be a daddy just yet i mean i am sooo not ready to give up any type of partying and i like not having to check in with anybody or anything or worrying about paul jr being all home alone and what not, or diapers and all that shit.
so any tips/advice or anything u wanna say to keep me from fucking up?
oceana_____:
ok i completely agree with the daddy thing...no kids for me right now, i am young and wanna have fun and plus i have too many goals that need to be accomplished before i start popping any kids out!!! as far as the girl goes, if she has low self esteem then it would have been hard to get close to her b/c she probably doesnt like her body therefore she would have always assumed you were judging her and compairing her etc. Low self esteem is hard to deal with especially if the girl, or guy, you are with is dealing with it...before they will let you fully into their world they have to except themselves and loves their world, get what i am saying!!! well i hope things get better for ya!!! 
sheena:
Thanks for the comment on my new set, I'm glad you liked it!