dedlyniteshade

all things go to perfect to hell in a hand basket 0 to 60 lmao, im ok though, i think i may be getting stronger like i once was, this is good and bad, cuz strong for me =numb for me as well, so to quote a good friend of mine *gotta find that perfect balance* having this heart can very much be a burden , i know feelings come from thoughts and thoughts come from brain but my brain happens to be a bit effed up soooo... LMAO i really hope this up coming weekend really happens, itll be a dream come true LITERALLY SPEAKING!!! if it doesnt, ill be really sad because i yearn soooo dearly to see my friend but i shall be ok for most part because im all to used to plans getting rained on sometimes, so *rainchecks are acceptable... my heart is so heavy over some family stuff, in reguards to that hardcore sad poem i wrote about my brother i wrote 3 more this morning, i literally woke up went to mancave lit cigg sipped coffee and let the hypography and the tears spew out, ill post the poems though one ill prob get nick to type because i cry really hard if i read it... july7th was the last time i hugged him, the last i love you, the last *txt me when your home safe...* i bottled all of it in last 2 or so months and i feel it buliding like an underground volcano waiting to erupt and i cant fully release tears right now just feel where theyre supposed to be im doingreally good in avoiding catastrophic break down but i can feel myself splitting at the seams and praying i dont come undone..... hope everones doing well! luv youse guys!