dedlyniteshade

last night was fun, im bruised and hellaciously skinned up, my elbows and knees remind me of first time i played street hockey in friends driveway with no pads lmao, everyone tried to keep chipper last night under the circumstances of losing someone from the squadron, her dog was there and i think that was one of the more sadder events was looking at how lost that dog seemed when she would lay her head in my lap, i gave her my pizza crust Nick slept late and showed up late but he got to go down slide a few times before we left lol, i fell asleep HARD! had a nightmare about a friend of mine that means alot to me and hoping they contact me soon so i know it was just a dream lol. Heres yet another messed up thing "nick has been nxt in line as an alternate on this upcoming deployment, the one that just died was tasked and ready to leave this wednesday!! i spoke in confidence with a SGT. last night and asked and all they could say "was most likely nick will get call monday morning(tomorrow!!!) to go in for outprocessing and take off this Wed. for 7-8 months in afghanastan... no time for r&r, no time with me, no goodbyes to family, no nothing, i know emotionally its easier this way because we wont have time for tears and sadness but still sux!!! i couldnt help but chuckle as we talked about it and i said "of ccourse you would get to flee the country right before HUGE base wide yard and housing inspection and the move in next 2 weeks lol no matter what happens I'll be ok , despite the abruptness of it all i knew what i was getting into when i got married and i knew it would be hard and id constantly have to be prepared for it...