Outliers:
One- The ex-girlfriend: She's been emailing me, and trying to keep in touch. The history of three years we've had, have been shot down by her fucking around before she left me to go to Ireland, while I was trying to make the best possible effort for her to leave comfortably. I only found out about this incident after she left.
Does she even deserve to have me speak with her? I'm debating on that one. I wrote her stupid ass a love-letter in the love-letter group, and this was before she tried getting back in touch with me. I'm still really mad at her about everything, even though I know that I loved her.
Two- I haven't been drinking a lot.
Three- I need to cancel my bills from Kansas! Jesus CHRIST! - This whole thing sucks hard-core... And they have my stuff.
Four- Lately, I've been desiring love, and I have yet to have discovered it. I think you're unable to find it in school, but I don't go ANYWHERE else, unless it's with school-mates. I've been second-guessing myself a lot lately, too. 25 is passed prime, right?
Five- Leigh Anna has been vocal about her suicidal tendencies. I am uncertain if I can hang with that, especially since she fucking puked today after eating pizza... If I tell about her in either of these cases... I don't know what to do.
Six- I am worried about going to the outlaws(gay, lesbian, etc.) meeting on two levels: one, although I might be open to it, it's so inclusive that I could really get fucked over by simply being a member. I think if I went, even just to show support, that could really compromise me within the school, but I also think that it's radical and important to be there and support them as a group. Two, I am worried that my saying that I'm just there to show supprt or whatever wouldn't be welcome anyhow. They are having a drinking gathering later this week, too- which may be easiest.
I just woke up, avoided the roommate, and studied.
These are the dilemmas inside of my head.
Goodnight,
Watch out for ships, meteors, and teenagers from Mars.
One- The ex-girlfriend: She's been emailing me, and trying to keep in touch. The history of three years we've had, have been shot down by her fucking around before she left me to go to Ireland, while I was trying to make the best possible effort for her to leave comfortably. I only found out about this incident after she left.
Does she even deserve to have me speak with her? I'm debating on that one. I wrote her stupid ass a love-letter in the love-letter group, and this was before she tried getting back in touch with me. I'm still really mad at her about everything, even though I know that I loved her.
Two- I haven't been drinking a lot.
Three- I need to cancel my bills from Kansas! Jesus CHRIST! - This whole thing sucks hard-core... And they have my stuff.
Four- Lately, I've been desiring love, and I have yet to have discovered it. I think you're unable to find it in school, but I don't go ANYWHERE else, unless it's with school-mates. I've been second-guessing myself a lot lately, too. 25 is passed prime, right?
Five- Leigh Anna has been vocal about her suicidal tendencies. I am uncertain if I can hang with that, especially since she fucking puked today after eating pizza... If I tell about her in either of these cases... I don't know what to do.
Six- I am worried about going to the outlaws(gay, lesbian, etc.) meeting on two levels: one, although I might be open to it, it's so inclusive that I could really get fucked over by simply being a member. I think if I went, even just to show support, that could really compromise me within the school, but I also think that it's radical and important to be there and support them as a group. Two, I am worried that my saying that I'm just there to show supprt or whatever wouldn't be welcome anyhow. They are having a drinking gathering later this week, too- which may be easiest.
I just woke up, avoided the roommate, and studied.
These are the dilemmas inside of my head.
Goodnight,
Watch out for ships, meteors, and teenagers from Mars.
25 is NOT past prime. I don't even consider dating anyone seriously unless they're about 30. You've got plenty of time and plenty of learning to do.
Avoid the roommate!!!!!