Live, Breathe, Sleep, Eat.....Work
Apparently work is a sickness for me. Not only do I spend the majority of my time there, I come home, or go to a bar...and work. I brainstorm about...work. It's becoming frightening. I think I need an intervention. I don't get paid enough to devote my life to this fucking place.
Here is how my schedule had been as of...
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Apparently work is a sickness for me. Not only do I spend the majority of my time there, I come home, or go to a bar...and work. I brainstorm about...work. It's becoming frightening. I think I need an intervention. I don't get paid enough to devote my life to this fucking place.
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sandman3030:
All work and not play makes Jack a dull boy.
guitargeek:
You need a vacation. 
Pittsburgh, The Quiet Storm, Bees and Bobcats
So Eve asked if I wanted to go to Pittsburgh last week, and of course I said FUCK YEAH. There is nothing better than travel, except travel with Eve. I have to admit, I was somewhat nervous about meeting her folks, had no idea it entailed meeting her grandma, and was even slightly flustered at the idea of...
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So Eve asked if I wanted to go to Pittsburgh last week, and of course I said FUCK YEAH. There is nothing better than travel, except travel with Eve. I have to admit, I was somewhat nervous about meeting her folks, had no idea it entailed meeting her grandma, and was even slightly flustered at the idea of...
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guitargeek:
What's so great about DC that you wouldn't want to move to... well... what's so great about Pittsburgh again?
Aside from the summer heat, I still insist that Austin is the greatest city on the planet, but I'm all into the music thing...
Aside from the summer heat, I still insist that Austin is the greatest city on the planet, but I'm all into the music thing...
yuriel:
glad you loved pittsburgh
glad you enjoyed the travel and found a place you love so and seem to belong -shrug-
<3
mmm music
glad you enjoyed the travel and found a place you love so and seem to belong -shrug-
<3
mmm music
Come Over
As of late I've been contemplating the various aspects of my life in which I find very little or no happiness...and I've reached a conclusion: I enjoy having perspective, even if it means the catalyst for perspective involves copious amounts of anguish.
I haven't really decided how fucked up this thought process is yet, but I'm leaning toward the unhealthy end of the...
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As of late I've been contemplating the various aspects of my life in which I find very little or no happiness...and I've reached a conclusion: I enjoy having perspective, even if it means the catalyst for perspective involves copious amounts of anguish.
I haven't really decided how fucked up this thought process is yet, but I'm leaning toward the unhealthy end of the...
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smellslikescifi:
I'd come over...but...
guitargeek:
Everything sucks, everything rules.
Can't have the crushing highs without the dizzying lows...
Can't have the crushing highs without the dizzying lows...
Sleeping...alone...sucks
This is the conclusion I've come to. Sleeping with two additonal people in my teensy Ikea bed sucks too, especially if one or both are over 5'9", but still being crowded sucks much less than feelin lonely. Since when did being alone start bothering me so much? Perhaps it's the isolation of the last 4 days that has made me realize lonliness is such...
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This is the conclusion I've come to. Sleeping with two additonal people in my teensy Ikea bed sucks too, especially if one or both are over 5'9", but still being crowded sucks much less than feelin lonely. Since when did being alone start bothering me so much? Perhaps it's the isolation of the last 4 days that has made me realize lonliness is such...
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evzilla:
I haven't worked with you in six days.
Something about that is just wrong.
If I wasn't sort of worried about your lungs, I'd drag you out to Wonderland again tonight.
Feel better, darling.
Something about that is just wrong.
If I wasn't sort of worried about your lungs, I'd drag you out to Wonderland again tonight.
Feel better, darling.
bluelight3:
You are funny, interesting, and out there - all at once.
Bloody cough and vanilla chai spice
This is day 3 of calling out of work. I'm still sick. My cough has gone from mildly obnoxious on Tuesday, to bloody and a total interference in my life. I can't work, can't sleep, can't be comfortable without mass doses of Hycodan, the best codeine cough syrup known to man. I'm taking 2,000 mg of Erythromycin daily, for...
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This is day 3 of calling out of work. I'm still sick. My cough has gone from mildly obnoxious on Tuesday, to bloody and a total interference in my life. I can't work, can't sleep, can't be comfortable without mass doses of Hycodan, the best codeine cough syrup known to man. I'm taking 2,000 mg of Erythromycin daily, for...
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evzilla:
I adore you. I miss you like crazy. I bought your favorite drink from Starbucks this morning and when I realized you weren't there to drink it I moped around.
If you moved back to Texas I don't know what I'd do.
I wish I weren't freaking out about not having enough money to move right now, or I'd pay your rent this month.
I would gladly bring you a gin & tonic and a photograph of Wonderland if you'd like.
I miss you.
It's quite pathetic, in fact.
If you moved back to Texas I don't know what I'd do.
I wish I weren't freaking out about not having enough money to move right now, or I'd pay your rent this month.
I would gladly bring you a gin & tonic and a photograph of Wonderland if you'd like.
I miss you.
It's quite pathetic, in fact.
evzilla:
Let's go bother Dan tomorrow (I work until 4... Around the time I anticipate you getting out of bed), and then spend the evening at Wonderland picking on men and giving them fake names.
I MISS YOU!!!!!!
I MISS YOU!!!!!!
I love my job, no really, I do...
I just hate a lot of the assclowns I work with. Namely a big ugly one with a condescending stick up her ass. If you've ever worked with a person like this, you realize what a tragedy it is for them to be in a managerial position. I love it when my fellow co-workers and I bust...
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I just hate a lot of the assclowns I work with. Namely a big ugly one with a condescending stick up her ass. If you've ever worked with a person like this, you realize what a tragedy it is for them to be in a managerial position. I love it when my fellow co-workers and I bust...
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guitargeek:
Here, watch this.
evzilla:
You're my God damn angel. A day at work without you is a day I'd rather not have to work at all.
Fuck the Boot!
I got booted today. It's not enough that I feel like shooting myself in the face lately, or that I have $13 to last through Friday, but no, motherfuckin DC parking enforcement booted my ass. $505 later, I have my car. I HATE this fucking city. I hate being alone, but I can't be with anyone for fear of fucking up my...
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I got booted today. It's not enough that I feel like shooting myself in the face lately, or that I have $13 to last through Friday, but no, motherfuckin DC parking enforcement booted my ass. $505 later, I have my car. I HATE this fucking city. I hate being alone, but I can't be with anyone for fear of fucking up my...
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bluelight3:
My pickup got booted once, right in front of the DC courthouse on Indiana Av. It wasn't much fun either. I like to remember it as 'the big surprise'.
Stay calm. Don't let the 5% that is bad in your life overwhelm the 95% that is good.
My best to you.
Stay calm. Don't let the 5% that is bad in your life overwhelm the 95% that is good.
My best to you.
bepps:
I sure hope better things are happening to you now.
sometimes life is so...hopeless. i'll say i'm happy, even smile as i wash down my pills. pills that do nothing. pills that cost too much to do nothing. i'm in a rut. my creativity is shot. i utter monosyllabic words 95% of the time. i look back at my actions and see nothing but damage. i look around and see everyone around me reaching out...
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snottlebocket:
why would you deserve it?
smellslikescifi:
I'll always believe in you, sweetheart. Miss you like a mofogator.
Thanks everyone for the words of encouragement and offers on meds.
A year ago today my dad passed, and I'm sleeping through it. If you try to call, and get my voicemail, I'm piss drunk and passed out. I'll resume normal communication once the day is done.
J
A year ago today my dad passed, and I'm sleeping through it. If you try to call, and get my voicemail, I'm piss drunk and passed out. I'll resume normal communication once the day is done.
J
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smellslikescifi:
Love you, baby.
fraktalp:
if you're in a dancin kind of mood here's a link to a new mixset i did. it's darker stuff:
http://www.sendspace.com/file/xqtvcw
http://www.sendspace.com/file/xqtvcw
Mental Health is a BITCH....
Yesterday was another fun filled day. I spent it in the emergency room at Suburban Hospital freaking out something fierce. I finally just lost my shit...entirely. I've been unmedicated for the past 2 months due to the trouble I had finding a doctor up here that could see me sooner than mid-July. So, I finally start calling around again yesterday...
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Yesterday was another fun filled day. I spent it in the emergency room at Suburban Hospital freaking out something fierce. I finally just lost my shit...entirely. I've been unmedicated for the past 2 months due to the trouble I had finding a doctor up here that could see me sooner than mid-July. So, I finally start calling around again yesterday...
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bepps:
Fuck dude that sucks big ol green hairy Yoda balls. Looks like your options are limited so maybe just be caaalllllm cooooooollll, breathe slow, and drink a bunch of water hehe. That's really the only suggestions I can give to help. Whatever you do please don't kill yourself. I'd at least like to hug and say hi and have a few drinks with one of the most awesome people on the planet before she goes bye bye.
yuriel:
fucking
retarded. ugh.
-eyeroll-
i hope you pull through and can find some way to work shit out before somethign really bad happens. i mean ugh.
-hugs tight-
yeah dont do anythign stupid.
we'd miss ya ya know?
retarded. ugh.
-eyeroll-
i hope you pull through and can find some way to work shit out before somethign really bad happens. i mean ugh.
-hugs tight-
yeah dont do anythign stupid.
we'd miss ya ya know?