deathtoforls

Just got back from Pace Bend. Drove out to get away from the overwhelming sorrow that is pervading my household at the moment. Seems the more affection I get right now, the more hysterical I become. It's been many a year since I wept so profusely and with such vigor. Took Kemlo, my favorite doberman, out there with me to catch a glimpse of the...
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I just found out my dad died. Nothing is right. Nothing. So much racing through my head, and yet the words fail me.

Arghhhh. Too much tequila last night damnit. Tonight is Spoon. I'm DYING to go, but damned if I'm not reconsidering because I hate going out alone. I always drink too much, because I'm antisocial like that and must be drunk if forced to mingle with dozens of strangers. Adderall has definitely not helped my social life. It makes me too damn impulsive, but doesnt really...
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Damn...I was grabbing a few winks when I hear "Jocie...where are YOUR KEYS???" "hello, Jocie, hello." Yeah, it was my mom, who else would dare wake me? I've knocked the woman out accidentally in times past with a hairbrush when woken from deep sleep. Apparently, my ninja skillz only emerge when I'm deep in sleep, because damn if I don't have incredible aim- like a...
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Hung out with a friend who will pay me to help him pack his house up today. Yeah, I had a drink, havent slept, and am exhausted, but money is money, and thats what I need at the moment...so I'm a little happier...ok, much fuckin happier. That and no traffic at 4:30 am makes my mothafuckin day! Thanks to everyone who left me sweet comments,...
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ah fuck it...I'm calling a girlfriend, ordering thai, drinking til I pass out and bawling my mutha lovin eyes out.

Ever had one of "those" days? You know, the ones where nothing seems satisfying in the least or remotely interesting. Where everywhere you go you feel as if you don't belong. When you're crawling out of your skin dying to do SOMETHING, anything, but cannot muster the energy required. Yeah, I'm having one of those. And where did it come from? Who the fuck knows,...
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So, it appears that I am not the only one leaving town for the summer. Seems everyone and their brother is off to some foreign destination for vaca. My good friend Andrew called last night to say he was outtie first thing this afternoon, so we just had coffee. I sure will miss that fool. Now who's going to address me as "Bitch" on a...
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I'm starting to feel a little like Kip from Napoleon Dynamite. My brother brings all his friends over and where am I? Glued to the ol SG website. Ah, my life is starting to feel a little empty and meaningless, what with the absence of work, but hey, vacation time is good too. If only I had the inclination or energy to do something other...
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So glad someone is alive! You scared the shit outta me GuitarGeek, and for that I will have to spank you, or something even more torturous, like bust your motha lovin kneecaps out. So, emotionally drained is the feeling of the night...I havent slept in oh, 48 hours now...cant really remember, but not looking like sleep will come too easy since I napped. BlueValentine, thanks...
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So I'm waiting to hear from the mother fucking deputy about Guitar Geek, and I'm freaking out. You reading this man? You'd fucking better be is all I can say. Damn you, dude. Damn you.

Wow, quite the day so far. By noon I had given 2 people rides, cooked 3 people breakfast, almost wrecked my car twice, and chased 3 very naughty, very dirty pooches down a dirt/gravel road barefoot. And man did I haul ass. Those mofogators knew it was on, cause when I finally caught them, my tone alone said "move one more inch and I'll beat...
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