well, its been a while since i've had this feeling. Right now my world is about to come crashing down around me. I am 10 months into a deployment over seas, and have had the most amazing girlfriend ever to help me through this. We had planned for her to move down to N.C., to live with me until i get out of the army. Now shes getting cold feet on moving down, and she's also having second thoughts about our relationship. I understand that this deployment has been difficult for her, but i feel the same way. If she had not been here for me for the past 10 months i would've gone crazy. I would've had nothing to look forward to going home to. And now all this has hit me. Its a swift kick in the teeth for me. I love her with all my heart, i'd do anything and have done everything for her while being deployed. I send her flowers every month on our "anniversary" to let her how much she means to me. Right now all these thoughts and feelings running through my head is killing me inside. although we havent broke up yet, i cannot but help to think of the worst. I have been having panic/anxiety attacks on and off all day, all i can think about is her. I have no one to talk to as of now cause its 3 pm. over here and everyone i know back in the states is asleep. And no one over here gives a shit. this blog is mainly ment for me to vent and keep me from thinking about the worst. I guess all i fare in Love and War..........
discoquette:
Thaks boy, Im trying to forget bad times
deathproof48:
no problem, ive been going through some tough times here lately. Hope it gets better for you.