deathofadream

So....today is friday and i have nothing to do. I was informed last night that my cuz kelly was not gonna be comin to the city this weekend, which pissed me off. Cuz she is the only one i hang out with. All my other friends do their own thing now so im basically left alone in the dark. My friend brenda and her bf moved up to new hampshire yesterday to stay with my cuz , they were my only choice left. And now theyre gone too. So im alone. When i was talkin to my other cuz, he was sorta sayin to me to "stop my bitchin" but he dont understand.

My and my cuz kelly grew really close 3 years ago b4 she moved. I was hangin with her nearly every day b4 she moved. We used to frikin get wrecked pretty much everyday on pills and booze(not together of course) and we used to talk about everything. And now that she moved back (3 months ago) and only comes down on the weekend.... I look forward to her comin down on the weekends cuz i work all week and dont do nothing but stay my sorry ass home. So when friday comes, i get my hopes all up cuz i know ill be gettin outta the house and hangin with her. Last week she came down, and i chilled with her for maybe about 2 hours out of the 3 days she was down. Saturday i went to a halloween party at my cuz coreys house, and didnt get to chill with her. and sunday i didnt get home from the party until 3 in the afternoon and she had already went back. So i was kinda pissed about that, and that is one of the reasons why i didnt wanna go to the party. Besides, it wasnt all that great anyways. I ended up standing in a dark hallway watchin all the drunk people and then goin into my cuz's room and playin with his cats.

Anywho, thats enough ranting from me. Im gonna try to get me some perks or vikes tonight, and if that dont work, im gonna get me some hard liquor and watchin some movies. Try to have a better night than i will be having.