daysofgrace13ben

Well this shit with Kristen really has not worked out at all. She is not at all who I thought she was. She lacks so much confidence yet she hides it all behind a sophisticated facade - just like Holly Golightly. Hell she might actually be the red headed Holly Golightly. We are not angry at each other it is simply just time that she...
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Today went well.I was off and I'm off tomorrow as well. I have been doing so much OT that I have not found any time to write. Kristen an I went out a few times but it didn't work out. We are still friends though. It doesn't stop the feeling of rejection and never being good enough. But anyhow I got a lot to do...
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I got punched in a bar fight at work today. It hurt but really felt good----it let me know I am alive.

Back to work to morrow. That so blows. I really hope her days off are Thursday/Friday. I don't want to see her even though I like her-in both ways. I just get so fucking nervous and anxious when I am around her. I get to the point where I get sick. Well I know I will never have her so I am thinking about switching...
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Well as you all know my life fucking sucks. But everyone give love to Dice at midnight when her set hits member review!!!! Peace!

Well I am finally off for 2 days. Just did a lot of stuff I needed to get done-but I am still so tired and still gotta clean my piece of shit car. I did 9 days of overtime in a row. Well at least the paycheck will be nice. I am going to do my best to enjoy my 2 days off. Well 1...
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Very tired. To much fucking work. But the money will be worth it. But really everything is all messed up-go to work at 2 come home at 4am for 5 days then Sunday and Monday 2 to 8 am. Then finally Tuesday and Wednesday off. Peace!

Well I must admit I was wrong on this one. I am the one who fucked up. I thought Kristin was off-but she was not! So When I saw her at work today I ignored her like an ass. Luckily cooler heads prevailed and everything is cool-except for the fact that we do not as I stupidly thought have the same days off. Yes I...
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Yes my last post was sad but the show must go on. It is not like I have not been stood up before so I am not gonna hang my head and cry. The problem is I really liked this woman and thought we could work out. Hell maybe she has a reason for this--I'm actually a little worried about her although I am pretty...
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So I had the date tonight. Well no I didn't. She never called and I called her and I have no fucking clue where she is. I swear this woman was so into me and I was so into her but I guess I am not really that special to her. When I see her at work on Friday I don't know what I'll say...
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