daysofgrace13ben

I have a crush. I'm moving way to fast. Head first into certain death? Came on 5 hours ago-like a breath. Redemption no? Redemption yes? I don't know cos I'm to afraid to guess. I have gone out this far. So I gotta go all the way. OK? Maybe no maybe yes. I'm just so afraid that i will end up all fucked up like...
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Another day gone by. I went to work but all I thought about was loves that could have been and loves that could be if I could only get my shit together. Will I ever-I don't know. I feel pathetic writing this but it is what is going on in my mind and life right now. December has always been a sad and lonely month...
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Well it is back to work today. Gotta make that money. I am kinda glad cos when I am not working I kinda get depressed and have anxiety attacks. I know that is weird but work truly keeps my mind very fucking busy which is good. Yes I deal with a lot of assholes but for some reason I happen to be very good at...
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Oh how I miss the old days. Not a care in the fucking world. Now it is just work and stress. I really can't take this stress and anxiety any more. Nothing seems to help at all. I wanna cry but must move on. Be a soldier pick my head and move forward never looking back. Live with no more regrets. Live like today is...
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I got a new tattoo!

Heroes live for ever
Rangers lead the way

R.I.P. Sgt. Renninger

So i did make the most of my day yesterday for the most part. The best part is that it snowed 3 inches. I love snow and how graceful it is. I no I probably sound like a wimp well I really am. And I don't care. I gotta work today but not till 11:00pm and I really don't care cos it is money I...
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I will make the most of this day. Finally.

I am so sick right now. I feel like I am gonna die. I don't even know why I am at the fucking computer. However I did get new speakers so I can hear things. I am so sick I can't even keep down ginger ale. Well to all peace.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I have been on a diet for the past 4 fucking weeks and today I am gonna eat my fat ass off! I'm not going to sleep at all today cos if I do it will screw everything up. So hell with it. I would be more tired if I got 21/2 hours of sleep than if I didn't sleep any way....
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