daysofgrace13ben

Well all I needed was 1 more week and I could have gotten off of my job for a year and gotten better physically and mentally sound. But I quit. Simple as that. Yes I was suffering miserably for over 8 months as well as being completely mistreated. But I just could no longer fake everything about me and who I was. I don't care that I made a shit load of money I could no longer work in the "house of the devil." I really don't care that I suffered. It really is not new to me. A person I love, who is dying slowly of cancer keeps getting shit on. No one fucking cares accept me and a few other people. I worked at the Sands Casino in Bethlehem. I could no longer deal with the way people in charge could be so cruel. They are literally heartless and have no compassion or respect for human life. Unless of course you are a patron then they will kiss the scum of the earth's ass holes. No matter how much of a dick they are. I really am so angered at myself for working this job and putting up with this shit for so long. Just to make some fucking money. I literally wasted a year of my life and honestly up to now almost the first 30. Yeah so I guess I kinda made a really dumb move by not securing another job before departing put I am one compulsive mother fucker. And as I so deeply believe that evil will triumph unless good men act and make a difference-well then from that on now is my future. I did it for myself and I did it for a girl I love so much but will never have. I really do got to admit that I feel a little bit cleaner. Maybe even reborn. Hey I gotta look on the bright side cos this could be the start of something. Peace.