Back to work to morrow. That so blows. I really hope her days off are Thursday/Friday. I don't want to see her even though I like her-in both ways. I just get so fucking nervous and anxious when I am around her. I get to the point where I get sick. Well I know I will never have her so I am thinking about switching shifts because as much as I love to see her it just really fucks me up in a major way. Maybe I am being smart or maybe I am just being a coward. I really don't know. But I so need to move on and find someone who does not make me depressed, obsessive, anxious and scared to death. Well----Peace!
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