daysofgrace13ben

I swear I have a big problem. There is this guy I work with and I swear he is worse than Jim Carrey in the cable guy. He is on me like a fucking leech. And I hate his fucking guts. He so badly wants to be friends. He goes out of his way to try and hook me up with girls I am not even interested in just so I can hang out with him and his girlfriend which I have no desire to do. First he is so arrogant and conceited. Second he is a major liar. Third he is a racist prick. And lastly he is just a true dumb shit motherfucker. I know you should be flattered when someone is quote in "awe" of you but this feels like a rock is in awe of me. And I am not at all a "cool" or "popular" person and many would think I would be flattered to have someone look up to me but I simply am not. This guy is not a good person. I just really don't know how to be nice about telling him to basically fuck off. As much as an ass hole as he is I'm just really a nice person and have a lot of difficulty being mean, especially seeing this guy and myself have the same shift and schedule. I want him to leave me alone--not hate me, especially cos for some reason enough people already do. I know that I am 29 and should know how to deal with this but it is and has always been a difficult thing to do.

Any way on a better note I finally got the balls to ask Amy out and we are going to go out next Tuesday when we are off. I am such a little boy----I am nervous already. I just have a huge fear of screwing up, which I so often do. But if it was meant to be it will work -- if not I am just back to the lab again.

Well if any body listened to this rant thank you or actually sorry. But as always to all-peace!!!!