daysofgrace13ben

WELL I AM BACK FROM BOSTON A LITTLE BIT EARLY. THE TRAINING TOTALLY SUCKED BUT LUCKILY WE ONLY DID ABOUT 4 HOURS A DAY. IT WAS AT HARVARD AND TAUGHT BY SOME PROFESSOR ABOUT COMPULSIVE GAMBLING AND DRUG AND ALCOHOL ADDICTION AT CASINOS. MOST OF THE TIME THE 5 PEOPLE WHO I WENT UP WITH DID ONE OF THE THINGS WE WERE TOLD TO WATCH OUT FOR----DRINK LIKE CRAZY. WE WERE ALL OVER BOSTON EVERY NIGHT JUST GETTING PISS DRUNK. SO ALL IN ALL IT WAS A PRETTY GOOD TIME. ON MY LAST DAY THERE I DROVE INTO RHODE ISLAND WERE I GREW UP. SPENT MOST OF THE DAY IN PROVIDENCE THEN I WENT DOWN TO THE BEACH AND JUST SAT AND THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. IT WAS KIND OF SAD LOOKING BACK ON MY LIFE AND HOW IT COULD BE SO MUCH DIFFERENT IF I HAD NOT BLOWN SO MANY CHANCES AND OPPORTUNITIES AWAY. BUT THEN I REALIZED YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST AND I MUST MOVE ON. SO I MADE A LIST OF WHAT I WAS GOING TO DO. THINGS I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO AND THINGS I MUST DO.
1. TAKE A CHANCE WITH NICOLE
2.RECORD ALL THE MUSIC I'VE WRITTEN--EVEN IF I HAVE TO DO IT ON MY OWN
3. WRITE A BOOK OF POETRY AND GET IT PUBLISHED
4.SMILE MORE
5.DON'T ALWAYS BE SO FUCKING SERIOUS

THAT IS JUST THE BEGINNING. THEY ARE ALL REALLY SIMPLE THINGS AND I KNOW I'M BEING WAY TO SERIOUS NOW SO I WILL STOP AN GO TO BED. WELL AFTER A FEW MORE BEERS AND SMOKES. SO I AM GLAD I'M BACK AND OF COURSE PEACE TO ALL!!!!