daysofgrace13ben

I FEEL I JUST CAN'T FUCKING WIN. I FEEL NOT APPRECIATED, MAD AT THE LIARS THAT HAVE RUINED MY LIFE, MAD AT THE FAKERS IN THIS WORLD, MAD AT THE PAIN I FEEL EVERY FUCKING DAY, MAD THAT SO MANY FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO OR WORSE AND THAT NOBODY GIVES A FUCK. ALL I FEEL IS SORROW. MOST PEOPLE AIN'T BEEN THROUGH THE SHIT I HAVE AND CAN'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND. I'VE SEEN ALL GOOD MEN TRAMPLED DOWN. I'VE SEEN DEATH, I'VE FELT HATE, I'VE BEEN FORCED TO DO THINGS MEN SHOULD NOT DO. AND I GET NOTHING FOR MY PAIN. MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED. I STOPPED TAKING ALL THE MEDS I WAS ON-STOPPED SEEING THE SHRINK THOUGHT LIFE WAS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. AFTER ALL I'VE BEEN THROUGH I THOUGHT IT WOULD FINALLY WORK OUT. IT DID NOT. ALL I HAVE IS SO MUCH ANXIETY.OBSESSION AND DEPRESSION. AND ALL I DO IN LIFE IS GOOD. I TRY TO HELP PEOPLE, I DEFEND THE WEAK AND THE BROKEN. I AM FULL OF SO MUCH COMPASSION AND LOVE BUT NO ONE WANT'S IT----AT LEAST NOT FROM ME. WELL YOU CANNOT BREAK WHAT IS ALREADY BROKEN AND IF YOUR GIVING UP THEN YOUR GIVING IN. SO I WILL FIGHT I WILL NOT GIVE IN. PEACE